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2016-03-14 at 3:13 AM UTC
Bill Krozby, if we can manage to be civil instead of just shit throwing Id enage more. Im not a junkie. I take T-PAIN for my chrinic pain, I used to be prescribed vicodin and percocets along with a poopoo platter of other shit years ago when I could actually afford a docotor and had one willing to write me pain meds. I have gone through a phase of shooting pills. Before the other day I hadnt shot up in a very long time. A friend of mine ended yp selling me a few pills for dirt cheap and I shot up after Id have them in my possession for a week. I still have two pills left- Im hardly a junkie. Junkies dont hold on to shit like that for a day muchless a weeek. Im saving the last two I have for when I got to move some heavy ass funitutre and get out of here, which wont be tooo much longer. Im in pain,Bill Krozby, everyday of my life, and it hurts, and makes everything just10 times more miserable than it should be. If I didnt have pain medicine, Id be bedridden 90% of the time. Even with this shitty stuff, I have days I cant do like I should be able to and have to figure out inventive ways to get my baby out of his playpen when I cant pick him up. I hate being like this- I wish, so much, I wasnt in pain all the time. Pain, chronic, never ceasing pain is an awful thing. Some people dont realize I suffer as I do because I get up, I try not to bitxh about it and I grit my teeth and go on with life. Im not a violent peraon by natire- Im a caring peraon. I try to take care of people I love, try to make them happy, try to do right by them. The incident with the gun, it reaulted in a combination of stress, horomonea from being pregnant (I was vomitting all day everyday wgile prego), and just feeling backed into a corner and unable to rid myself of this rapist pigwho wouldnt go and leave my house, who wouldnt stay out of my life. §m£ÂgØL stayed with us and slept in our bed 99% of the time here and one reason I liked it so much was because I didnt havr to fear being fucked in my sleep and waking up feeling like I was violated. My husband slammed on breaks one day shortly after he came down, hurting my back, so I got out at the stop sign and was determined to walk to a homeless shelfter (probably trying to hitchhike since it was like 30 miles away) and I was grabbed by Gollym on the sidewalk when I repeatedly told him to go away, leave me alone, I was leaving. I got scared becaaue Ive gone to leave like that before and was grabbed and thrown in a vehicle and driven home before. I forget what I said to him, but it was along the linea of fuck off Im going to scream in the atreets for help if you dont fucking let go of me. I was stalked by them for two houra, where evwr I went thwyd poat up aways andI not wanting to be followed kept changing directions. After all this hell I said fuck it and finally hitchhiked hime I was so tired and fucking beat down from thia stalking from my exhusband and §m£ÂgØL- Im guessing he was afraid Id report him for abuse and rape is why he kept trying to stop me from leaving. It made it so hard to get away from this asshole and I really believeed at the time §m£ÂgØL was involved with the shit especially since after telling him to leave me alone, go away and not touch me, he came up and grabbed me on the street. I was really desparate to get away from this situation. I never, ever was violent toward §m£ÂgØL after that incident with the gun again. I hold a lot of guilt for it all. I didnt want to hurt anyone, if I did, I would have…. I wanted to get out of this hell of a relationship with my exhusband. I even talked to §m£ÂgØL before he came back about the fighting, about the hell I was in… I didnt try to keep it a secret about the shit. One reason §m£ÂgØL didnt stay with us was because my husband and I faught ao much and I plannned and did have the baby at home. §m£ÂgØL did help me when I couldnt cash my pell grant check and I was going to pay him back the money but was told 'no, if you do I wont ever talk to you again'. He also helped me get electric and paid it a few time when my grandmother shut off the electric after my exhusband left. I give credit where credit is due and §m£ÂgØL did offer many times to help me when I was struggling but I said many times, No, I didnt want the help I wanted to show him I could do it myself. His biggeat fear of being with me was I was trying to use him. I wanted to do it all myself so he coykd see I wasnt looking to be with him just for money, Iwanted to be with this person I loved and cared about and felt so ckose to. I wanted tomake up for that one awful night, I wanted to be a better person than I had been in many years when I was surounded by toxicity. Ive always struggled with depression and sucidial ideations, even making serious attempts many, many years ago (PoC can vouche for atleast one of those). Its hard to keep going when there is no hope in sight. §m£ÂgØL, by coming down here, by being with me offered me that hope that kept me going. Id planned, before he had asked if we could try, to just go until it fell apart and I ceashed and burned, much like I have now. I still struggled evem when things werent so bad, but this is something Id been working to change that had been this way for well over a decade. i told him that people dont just heal over night, nobody, dealing with the sort of shit Id been dealing with just heals and fixes everything over night, it takes time and Id made big improvements in the short period of time (a few months) since my exhusband left. Id been accused of trying to keep the baby away from him,trying to use him and all this shit… of not wanting the same life he did so much, but I kept my head up and tried so hard to keep going and not letting his feara deatroy everything like they kept trying to do. §m£ÂgØL gets scared and irrational a lot and when he doea his mentality is to trash everything. Hes been suicidal a lot aswell- his plans were always to order buturalfentanyl and kill himself. There was one time we both were suicidal, but he wanted to see me a last time and proposed hed order the shit and we would suicide together…. I wish so much, his fear hadnt ruined it all, and that that awful time hadnt ever happened to bring thoses fears to fruit in the firat place. Things could have been better than all this. Also if you want to bitxh about paragraphs, Im on a phone and cant even see the text I type as I type it-deal with it.
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2016-03-14 at 3:18 AM UTC[greentext]>"I'm not a junkie"[/greentext]
[greentext]>Username: Hydromorphone[/greentext]
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Hydro is the new IWD
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2016-03-14 at 3:27 AM UTCJust because someone does a drug doesnt mean they are a junkie. People suffer chronic pain and its a terrible thing- I dont go about getting high, I go about killing debilitating pain. last time I saw a dilly was when my son was born and I was using very low doses- they give the shit in the hospitals, my friend was prescribed for 3 months after her son was born and she was breast feeding. I wasnt even using doses she was prescribed. I medicate, I dont get high. I havent even bought weed in forever and the little bit Ive had between then was from generous coworkers who threw me a bone.
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2016-03-14 at 3:28 AM UTC1337 can back me up on this, my T-PAIN use is way in check compared to others even. Im just trying to get by, trying to make it one day at a time before it all goes up.
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2016-03-14 at 8:16 AM UTCYou can't just shut up, can you? So, in case hydro decides to bring this up in court, or she decides to come murder me, I am going to give my piece. First off, Bill Krozby doesn't know shit from shit and has no so-called "inside knowledge," half of what he says is false and the other half is just plain incendiary. I never fucking talk to Bill Krozby and it's hilarious he's acting like he knows what's going on whatsoever.
To start, for the entirety of my last job I was sending hydro money. Even while her husband was there, I sent money for milk, I paid her electricity, her phone bill, when she had a fire scare I sent her fire alarms, I sent her a solar powered battery in case the power went out; so that she would still have a way to charge her phone and call for help. While I was there I cleaned up, I have pictures of the fucking clusterfuck but I won't post them. You literally were walking through deer trail like paths through mounds of garbage. I mean, there were two ways to get to the kitchen and both were just stepping over the smaller piles of garbage.
I was always begging them to stop fighting which was a daily happening, Hydro is bi-polar as fuck and snaps at the littlest of things. I've seen her kick her husband in the chest out of nowhere because she found out he borrowed twenty dollars from her grandmother. Twenty dollars. This is a woman who can kick like a horse. They've punched and kicked and screamed and thrown things and threatened. Not to mention the guns. Oh boy.
There were two occasions when hydro pulled a gun on me and her husband. Both of these times I was just chilling in my room (the only clean place on the property). The first time I was trying to ignore it when I hear "HELP, HELP, §m£ÂgØL PLEASE HELP" and I came out to what looked like a murder in progress with her husband choking her and her smashing against his head. Mind you, this is the day after I arrived. Within the week she pulled a gun again. When I tried to intervene, like "hey, how about lets not kill people" she pointed the gun at me and told me something along the lines of "stand the fuck back, i will not hesitate to shoot you."
This was the point I realized I'd made the biggest fuckup of my life by deciding to hitchhike to these ass-backwards hillbillies.
There are some other fun parts. The time she mentioned about her husband "slamming" on the breaks? He was just fucking driving. It wasn't even that bad. But no, screaming match, she got out of the car, started walking down the road for god knows fucking what. This is not the first time she's done stupid irrational shit like this, and it wasn't the last either. When I got out of the car saying "Hydro, cmon just stop, talk to me" I reached out to touch her shoulder (I'm not the type to just grab people, especially not a woman who was pissed off and would and could kick my ass) she turned around and yelled "HELP HELP, SOMEBODY CALL THE POLICE THIS MAN IS FOLOWING ME AND I WANT TO BE LEFT THE FUCK ALONE!" To passing traffic. This is the point at which I nope'd the fuck out and turned around only to be picked up by her husband who proceeded to follow her as I told him to just head back because there is no way we were going to get an angry 250lb woman in the car and honestly, why would you want to?
I tried to stop her because "hey lets stop the raging hormonal bitch from doing stupid shit that'll fuck up this unborn child" but she didn't give a fuck. All of that stress and turmoil has done a number to that kid, between this and the smoking is most certainly why he was and is such a tiny baby. If she raises him, she will instill into him the anxiety and fear and stress that she has instilled into me during the time she was a part of my life.
I only wanted to do what was right for this child I thought could be mine. I sent money, I offered more money, I was there to help, I did everything I could. The reason I left her home was because I could not stand the daily fighting. Seriously, when weapons are brought out (and believe me, the revolver isn't the only one) I cannot deal. I quit my job because I was tired of supporting her ass while she sat around; only after realizing "hey, this guy isn't going to support me anymore" did she actually get a job. I never once asked to be payed back, nor was I ever payed back despite her claims of having sent a money order in the mail. I couldn't, in good conscious, be making money and not send her some. Fucked up logic, I know. But I was ready to just give up. This would never work.
She is a drug addict, but she doesn't doesn't use just because she wants to get high, hydro has legitimate pain. She smoked cigarettes during her pregnancy, despite me sending an e-cigarette and juice. She blamed everyone around her, including me, for smoking cigarettes and 'making' her smoke them. You know what? I smoke the occasional cigarette most every time I go out, I don't blame my friends for it. I blame myself for a lack of self control. She quit her job about 6 months into her pregnancy and proceeded to do nothing but borrow money from her grandmother and pawn shit.
A big part of why she is now facing homelessness is because of her dogs. Sorry, but I don't want a dozen dogs or a parrot that is older than I am... and cats. She told me "you're gonna throw it all away because of a promise I made to my dogs?" her dogs in which she puts above the well-being of her child. She told me "You're gonna throw it all away because I threatened you with a loaded .38 revolver?" Why the fuck shouldn't I? She literally told me "you're the reason I had a heart attack and you're the reason I'm going to die soon" I fucking wish.
She filed a police report against me for "threatening law enforcement" because she was calling my house for 30 minutes straight, back to back ringing. This is harassment. The police came thinking I had killed my mother. Which is absolutely baffling because even in euphemism I have never said anything of the sort.
Hydromorphone is a deluded, manipulative, psychotic, dangerous individual and she does not belong around a child or anybody else for that matter. She has admitted to shooting up morphine which she is not prescribed. Her mention of me being suicidal, yeah, in the past I have been. Wouldn't you be too if you had to deal with a crazy bitch like her? However, I never, not once suggested that we suicide together, this was an idea of hers. I'm not suicidal anymore, my life has been VASTLY improved since I cut off contact with hydro.
I'm so tired of this cunt. I wish she would just go away, a man can only try to help so much. The only thing I want for her is to give the child up for adoption. I was an idiot for ever having sex with her, i was a bigger idiot for not wearing a condom. I was lied to and told that she couldn't get pregnant, given that her husband who had once impregnated her hadn't been able to, I believed her. I made a mistake, so did everybody involved. What wasn't up to me, was her decision to have this baby with a man who was a convicted pedophile and a violent rapist, a man who had threatened to kill her in her sleep, threw her down stairs, choked her, etc. It was her body and ultimately, her choice. She also didn't give the baby up before he had a father listed on the birth certificate. She also didn't fucking *kill* the man who held this baby by the neck and threatened to strangle him.
I can no longer feel empathy for a woman who has fucked up her entire life and blames it only on those around her. I can't feel empathy for a woman who stayed in a violent relationship for ten fucking years.
You need to do the right thing hydro and give that baby a home with two parents who wanted a child from the go and will give him a happy life. I am tired of dealing with you out of pure guilt and feeling of having no other choice. Please stay out of the rest of my life. Stop emailing me, stop contacting me, stop fucking making me have to intervene with dumb fucking threads like this just to ensure justice when you inevitably kill me.
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2016-03-14 at 8:19 AM UTCThis gun be gud
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2016-03-14 at 10:06 AM UTCeveryone in this thread needs to cool it
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2016-03-14 at 10:17 AM UTC
everyone in this thread needs to cool it
[greentext]>listening to Bill Krozby[/greentext]
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2016-03-14 at 2:47 PM UTCIntervine for justice? Wtf... Ive never, nor now want to kill you. When I pulled the gun, both times, I just wanted BOTH of you to leave my fucking home. Did you? No, I went on for a day tell you to pack your shit, you needed to leave ASAP and instrad of respect that you came back with a rug for your room. Im glad your life is better, but 90% og what youve said is straight up twisted. You said first off you werent going to even post here again, so why the fucking bullshit? You care so much what these faggots think of you youve got to post shit and hurt me more? A person dying of heart failure, low oxygen levels, chronic pain, just struggling to get by. I may be physically dependent on a drug, but Imnot like youbwho abuses everything they lay their hands on everytime they do deapite knowing the ahit it would cause. I begged you not to abuse the benzos I sent, begged and pleaded and almost had it stopped in transit when you abused a few you bought from your friend. I was terrified of whatd happen. I see I was right to be, as youre so fucking delusional, so fucking paranoid, and obviously dont even remember shit correctly. I swear to god on my sons life, the person on this earth I love above all, you grabbed me and wouldnt let go when I got out. maybe the sudden jar didnt hurt your back which isnt fucked up, but it did mine and I decided then and there to just leave. I woyld have been perfectly happy for you and him to have gone and done what the fuck ever away from me. I didn not wish to be touched being in pain, I did not wish to talk to you despite you bitching I stop and do so. I wanted to LEAVE the abuse. Both of you tried to stop me. How many times did I say I was going to give that baby up for adoption before he signed be BC? A dozen? Maybe more? How many times did YOU tell me not to? Sometimes after a speil of saying I should, then when I said 'okay, Im going todothis, Im going now' its be followed with 'wait, Im wrong... dont, things will get better'. I did not get a jobjust because you wouldnt support me. I NEVER wanted your help, I begged you not tosend mefire alarms or the other shit or to pay myelectric yet you went on and on about how you were myfriend and what good money was if you couldnt spend it to help the people you loved. Guess you dont remember that. I did send you a $300 MO and when I said I did fuck, you went on a tangent about how Isomehow could sue or.. idk wtf you thought I could do if you cashed it- you put it in your bankaccount and wait for it to clear or gosomewhere it was issued and have it cashed- wtf can I doabout it? Ilost the recipt, Idont know if youve got it or cashed it or just too afraid to cash it for some weird ass reason- maybe your parents tookit since they would take and go through your mail- idk but I sent it. you know, being all worried about some fucking post on a forum you made a thread about not posting on anymore- your life couldnt have got that much better if youre scared Ill murder you and want some sort of 'justice' or whatever. And for the record, I swear on my sons life I never said to thepolice youd hurt your mom. I called because I called YOUR MOTHERS PHONE NUMBER, NOT YOURS, Ill post the number if you want to keep bitching about it so you can have tour fucking justice and these people you care so much about can see whos name its registered in. I was threatened to have DCF called on me if I kept trying to contact his mom and for fear my exhusband woyld get custody if e called I called so they could inform her- I dont know why they didnt but I swear on everything dear to me. I was trying to give my son away, and even though they didnt respond I did give him to someone else. I need to get my exhusband off the BC before he can be adopted, please, someone explain that a father has the right to say no to adoption and can take custody, he doesnt believe me and hes said he will take custody dipshit. Im working on that. I sorry youve regretted everything with me, and yes, most of this shit, working around the clock to raise a child, working without sleep 99% of the time has caused my health to deteriorate so fast. i still am working, I walked off the one night but was talked to come back by the same coworkers who did try and help me. I wont be homeless because of the dogs Ill be homeless because I cannot pay rent, becaue my taxes were spent on a vehicle, and Ive no fucking money to move. Youre such apetty, sad little man. Be happy Ill be dead soon, please, it should come as a relief to you. I wish I was joking I wish to god I wasnt in so much pain and I wish to fuck you hadnt given me hope, and got me to keep going when all I wanted to do was lay down and die. I tried so hard for you, and I loved you so much, I still do, because Im loyal and stupid. You didnt have to hurt me like this, you didnt have to make this pain so much greater than it is. Your life must not be all that well if youre still worried about all this and fuck have to post on this dumb little forum because I say something you disagree with or dont want these fags to think differently of you... Dont worry, hes gone, Im just working to make sure all the shit is cleared and hes off the BC before I die.
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2016-03-14 at 3:08 PM UTC^ typical woman, always finding something to cry about, and threatens to expose PI. You sound kind of salty. Go ahead and post §m£ÂgØLs parents phone number, nobody here gives a shit you bitch
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2016-03-14 at 3:13 PM UTC.
