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I think about killing myself a lot
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2016-02-18 at 6:34 PM UTC
I think about smoking and cooking meth literally every day
We've noticed. -
2016-02-19 at 4:03 AM UTC
I'm going to miss you if you OD on drugs.
Why do you think i do drugs? As a side note, OD'ing on opiates is very peaceful, i did it once. You just fall asleep, if you take enough you just won't be waking up. -
2016-02-19 at 3:24 PM UTC
Why do you think i do drugs? As a side note, OD'ing on opiates is very peaceful, i did it once. You just fall asleep, if you take enough you just won't be waking up.
You talk about doing drugs a lot. -
2016-02-19 at 5:42 PM UTC
I think about killing myself everyday. Usually several times a day.
I always anticipate that something awful is going to happen and, if it ever does, I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to able to handle it. It's just this foreboding feeling that disaster is right around the corner. The worst part is that I feel guilty like I deserve it. I feel like I've lived a wicked and disgusting life and that I would deserve whatever is coming to me.
I feel awful for my family who would have to go on without me, especially my mother. We have a wonderful relationship and I'd hate to imagine her living her life everyday with the sorrow that her son is dead. I just feel guilty even thinking about it. I feel like it's already too late, which doesn't even make any sense.
Anyway, this wasn't a cry for attention or to have a ton of niggasinspace leave me warm fuzzies about how great you think I am. Honestly I'm a dick most of the time to you guys anyway. Most of you would probably think this is funny and joke about it if I ever blew my brains out.
I guess I just put it up here as a reminder for myself.
Why do you feel that you've lived a terrible and wicked life? I'm sorry that you're so down. I feel cheezy saying "O I hope you feel better." Not quite sure what to say to be honest, but Ive always like you and thought you were cool and level headed. Even on zoklet I thought that. But, do you have any friends that could help you at or vent to? I never was one for therapy but it helps some people. -
2016-02-22 at 3:25 AM UTC
You talk about doing drugs a lot.
I thought you were smart. I meant what do you think is my reason for doing drugs. -
2016-02-22 at 4:59 AM UTC
I thought you were smart. I meant what do you think is my reason for doing drugs.
Most people do drugs because they are smart.
I am not smart and therefore do not do drugs. -
2016-03-11 at 6:06 AM UTC
I'm probably going to kill myself soon, mostly due to boredom. I'm back in school and working an IT job, have friends that I chill with regularly, generally good relationship with my family, and still my life experience is hollow. I really can't understand how anyone makes it 70+ years on this rock without blowing their brains out. I guess the fact that I'm incapable of forging a true personal connection with anyone doesn't help. I'm an island and even when surrounded by people, I'm truly alone.
I'm like this guy except I'm not a bitch -
2016-03-11 at 1:04 PM UTC
Most people do drugs because they are smart.
I am not smart and therefore do not do drugs.
Makes sense. (n_n") -
2016-03-11 at 2:29 PM UTCmr anders brevik, there is nothing wrong with being an island, even with "meaningful relationships" every man has to be an island. Relationships can take the best part of you if you don't have some disconnection to them.
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2016-03-11 at 3:45 PM UTCToday I woke up and the cable got cut off at my dads. There's also no food and I'm having hunger pains and there's no money anywhere and everyone is in poverty but knowing I will live to smoke another day keeps my spirits high.
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2016-03-11 at 3:47 PM UTCi think about killing myself probably 2-3 times in a week, but not in like a depression boo-hoo life sucks kinda way. back when i used to be depressed i used suicidal thoughts as a coping mechanism, going by the logic that if things every got really, truly bad, i could just off myself and that would be it, easy as a single trigger pull. but then of course things never really got that bad, i never had a bad enough day to go through with anything. in turn, this made me realize that life wasn't ever really as bad as i thought, which pulled me out of depression. i'm still in the habit of thinking of days in that same way, if they get bad enough i'll just quit, but nowadays my outlook on life is pretty positive so it rarely gets anywhere near that bad. it's kind of an inside joke with myself now, like if i spill my coffee in the car i just think to myself "oh better get the noose!" and then i laugh and go about my day.
suicidal people in this thread, don't fucking kill yourself. it's not ever as bad as it seems. -
2016-03-11 at 5:24 PM UTCExistence is a gift given to you by God.
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2016-03-11 at 5:24 PM UTCLiving forever is the best way to repay that gift.
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2016-03-11 at 8:32 PM UTC
i think about killing myself probably 2-3 times in a week, but not in like a depression boo-hoo life sucks kinda way. back when i used to be depressed i used suicidal thoughts as a coping mechanism, going by the logic that if things every got really, truly bad, i could just off myself and that would be it, easy as a single trigger pull. but then of course things never really got that bad, i never had a bad enough day to go through with anything. in turn, this made me realize that life wasn't ever really as bad as i thought, which pulled me out of depression. i'm still in the habit of thinking of days in that same way, if they get bad enough i'll just quit, but nowadays my outlook on life is pretty positive so it rarely gets anywhere near that bad. it's kind of an inside joke with myself now, like if i spill my coffee in the car i just think to myself "oh better get the noose!" and then i laugh and go about my day.
suicidal people in this thread, don't fucking kill yourself. it's not ever as bad as it seems.
keep the thoughts down, kind of, they can relapse you if you're ever tired or drunk and get caught up them -
2016-03-11 at 9:33 PM UTC
keep the thoughts down, kind of, they can relapse you if you're ever tired or drunk and get caught up them
yeah i know, i generally just try and fall asleep when that happens. thanks for the word of advice though, i appreciate it. -
2016-03-11 at 9:52 PM UTC
Today I woke up and the cable got cut off at my dads. There's also no food and I'm having hunger pains and there's no money anywhere and everyone is in poverty but knowing I will live to smoke another day keeps my spirits high.
Have you ever thought about getting a job -
2016-03-12 at 1:48 AM UTC
Have you ever thought about getting a job
I'm moving back to the city to drive forklift when my welfare cheque comes in and after I buy a gram of meth.
I had the same job for 4 years since I was 18 so I know I can work anywhere I want.
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2016-03-12 at 4:39 AM UTCDon't kill yourself bro. PM me if you need to get something off of your chest or need a friend.
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2016-03-12 at 4:56 AM UTC
Don't kill yourself bro. PM me if you need to get something off of your chest or need a friend.
Got a Thanks for the spirit and the fact that PMs don't work. -
2016-03-12 at 5:42 AM UTC
Don't kill yourself bro. PM me if you need to get something off of your chest or need a friend.
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