2024-09-20 at 1:13 AM UTC
Well my guy went home to get some sleep for work tomorrow and butt is really laying the guilt on thick so I’m going to go hang out with him as a friend..
I can’t just abandon him after 4 years but I don’t want to be with him in that way ..I still love him just not like to be with as a couple really …
This chit done turned into melrose place
🤦🏽♀️ ❤️
I’m glad I got this diary !
2024-09-20 at 2:46 AM UTC
Like a glimpse from the past, you conceal the dark
In a frame, you're the poster upon the wall
In my dreams, you the prince and I'm at the ball
Fairytales, I'm not used to them at all
You got me questioning, what have you done to me?
Used to be out of reach
Feel like you're testing me, you're the necessity
Full court press on me ❤️🎵
2024-09-20 at 2:55 AM UTC
*tokez*
So my boyfriend isn’t someone that I just met ..I actually knew him about 5-6 years ago before I even met butt…
We used to just smoke and mess around I knew he wasn’t looking for anything serious and I wasn’t either really I was just enjoying meeting new people
But I always really liked him ..he’s always been really really sweet and attractive…
Now we’ve found each other again and he wants something serious..I want something serious and here we are …being serious! 🥰..but having so much fuqn fun doing it 😩🥰
He can’t go a day without seeing me ..he told me I heal him …
I asked him flat out *tokez* do you think we’re moving too fast ..should we give each other space to miss each other
He said no ..space is not what he needs from me ..
2024-09-20 at 3:10 AM UTC
He told me you will never need another compliment from another man I’ll give you all the compliments you need
And he tells me I’m pretty all the damn time ..I’ll look up and he’ll just be staring at me and he’ll say you’re so pretty..you’re so fuqn pretty
Today he told me…you just have to cutest lil face 😭🥰
He’s always looking at me and sometimes I get nervous because I’m so attracted to him and I’m like you staring at me and you fine as hell makin me feel nervous 😩❤️
Everything is so reciprocated…reciprocation is so important to me
Everything I feel he lets me know it’s so mutual and that means a lot to me 🥰
2024-09-20 at 3:23 AM UTC
This venting feels good for my mental health..this feels good to let out without burdening people I know with all this overwhelming raw emotion lol .. I see why diary’s were thought of …
2024-09-20 at 3:30 AM UTC
Not long before I met butt ..I was at work and my current boyfriend was at my job fixing something with the company he works for…
And we hadn’t seen each other for a minute…
We saw each other and we were so excited to see each other but we both were working and we couldn’t really talk …
But I remember being in an empty room without a patient in it and I could see him doing something outside working and I remember peeking through the blinds watching him thinking damn he still fine as hell
I told him about it and he told me he called my phone that night but I never answered and he thought I was dodging him …
And I never saw him again until we started dating after we found each other again ❤️
2024-09-20 at 5:25 AM UTC
It’s the never ever ever for me 🥰🥰🥰
Eeeeeee!!!❤️
2024-09-20 at 5:31 AM UTC
I’m so fuqn happy bro …it feels so fuqn good
