I have to start drinking coffee at night, before bed or I get extremely sick and wake up feeling like I was drinking beer all night. I know how fucked that is because i've done enough meth to have a high tolerance where you can smoke a bunch, go to sleep and wake up still high.
This is somehow worse than hard drug abuse but less harmful. I don't even drink that much coffee and struggle to finish a pot most days and yet my dependence grows along with the physical pain I experience when running out
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I've never been this physically addicted to a drug in my life. It's entirely my fault but I just have no idea how I got into this mess and think some scientists should scan my blood, I might have reached unheard of levels.