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2024-06-04 at 10:30 PM UTCthis is what my head feels like rn
ong fr fr
there is such a thin membrane between me and... like... screeching monkey noises, smashing everything. boredom. inhuman boredom. nigh elven boredom: an eternal boredom that withers and frays my sanity.
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2024-06-04 at 10:33 PM UTC
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2024-06-04 at 10:44 PM UTCTake up chess? I know I'm bored whenever I think I should work on my chess game. It's like the base activity you can do if you just need something to sink time into that isn't actively harmful to your health or sanity.
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2024-06-04 at 10:53 PM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny Take up chess? I know I'm bored whenever I think I should work on my chess game. It's like the base activity you can do if you just need something to sink time into that isn't actively harmful to your health or sanity.
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2024-06-04 at 10:54 PM UTCI'm too stupid for chess. All I know is bongcloud, eat hot chip, and lie.
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2024-06-04 at 10:57 PM UTCYou're meant to spend 1/3 of your time doing gainful, 1/3 of your time sleeping and 1/3 of your time in rest/sleep.
When you spend 1/3 of your time in rest and 2/3 of your time doing nothing of course your mental health is going to manifest itself in uniquely unpleasant ways. -
2024-06-04 at 10:58 PM UTC
Originally posted by Enigma You're meant to spend 1/3 of your time doing gainful, 1/3 of your time sleeping and 1/3 of your time in rest/sleep.
When you spend 1/3 of your time in rest and 2/3 of your time doing nothing of course your mental health is going to manifest itself in uniquely unpleasant ways.
I spend at least one half of my time in rest.
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2024-06-04 at 11:03 PM UTCJust remember you never have free time. There's always something you should be doing. You will never read everything you want to read because there isn't enough time.
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2024-06-05 at 12:01 AM UTC
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2024-06-05 at 12:08 AM UTC
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2024-06-05 at 12:14 AM UTCMaybe get in trips out every day. When I was a NEET I'd set out to go to the gym, go to the forest, go see local landmarks, go to church, go to get shopping, generally try to get something in every day.
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2024-06-05 at 12:19 AM UTCKeep doing LSD until it shuts up.
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2024-06-05 at 12:19 AM UTC
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2024-06-05 at 12:25 AM UTC
Originally posted by Donald Trump Maybe get in trips out every day. When I was a NEET I'd set out to go to the gym, go to the forest, go see local landmarks, go to church, go to get shopping, generally try to get something in every day.
outside scawwy
also like i dont wanna inflict myself upon the world. i feel awful for people who see me and then there's that split second of like "oh fuck oh fuck what do i call this androgynous hobgoblin lookin' thing? i bet it'll get mad if i get it wrong..."
i prefer to just be inside. for my sake and theirs. y'know?
i just need to like... play a video game or something. maybe read a book. or make something. making something would probably be good, but i'm in my 30s and talentless. i really need crystal meth to convince me otherwise, and to afford me the requisite burst of passion to accomplish anything. honestly if i had meth or even vyvanse i'd find something to do with myself without fail. last time i had meth i got the free gcp trial and started tinkering with hosting servers. probably the most productive thing i'd done in a decade. it just seemed worth doing. without some potent stimmies at my disposal, nothing feels worth doing. i've got no passion. 🤷 -
2024-06-05 at 12:30 AM UTCthe fucked up part is that on paper i realize this all sounds really miserable, but in reality i'm actually quite content. there's just a shrieking monkey in my brain that wants me to distract it. it's no more bothersome than an itch, really.
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2024-06-05 at 12:31 AM UTCthis is what happens when you don't smoke weed all the time. Make your brain go slow motion and you will play the same video games for years and be like WHOA MAN THE PS7 HAS BEEN OUT FOR 2 YEARS ALREADY?
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2024-06-05 at 12:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood this is what happens when you don't smoke weed all the time. Make your brain go slow motion and you will play the same video games for years and be like WHOA MAN THE PS7 HAS BEEN OUT FOR 2 YEARS ALREADY?
weed doesnt make my brain go slow motion it makes my brain go embarrassingly fast. as in, it goes fast, and all it does with that speed is relay a never-ending stream of embarrassing thoughts/memories until i finally manage to pass out. weed doesn't get me high it just makes me feel immense shame. -
2024-06-05 at 12:39 AM UTC>get high
>watch show i've been enjoying for the past 12 episodes
>suddenly realize how fucking stupid and shitty it is now that i'm high
>like... jesus. this is so awkward. fuck. who could watch this? ew. oh wait. me. i watched it for hours at a time. ew. ew. i'm just gonna lay down. ugh. -
2024-06-05 at 1:28 AM UTCDon't play Lanny. He trades queens within the first ten moves and ruins the game.
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2024-06-05 at 4:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Elbow this is what my head feels like rn
ong fr fr
there is such a thin membrane between me and… like… screeching monkey noises, smashing everything. boredom. inhuman boredom. nigh elven boredom: an eternal boredom that withers and frays my sanity.
wat do
this is how i feel having to live in poland and be ignored by females who make no eye contact or say hi.