2024-05-26 at 8:42 AM UTC
I get panic attacks when driving long drives. Gigi wants to go then doesn't . I will be pulling over for her to take a piss because she gets nervous on long trips. no way to take a plane and rent a car in that area shes in.
after listening to Kafka I felt I need to go see my mom. she's just getting old and forgets shit in mid sentence. its super painful to see your Mom get old. I remember her young and full of energy. she still is super energetic but it's like she has no clue where she's heading off to.
I'm super energetic right now myself. I took gabapentin, SSRI and drank a fucking large Pepsi (sugar free) and cant sleep. feel like jumping in my car and head towards Oregon. like 6-7 hours if not much traffic. I have to go see a doctor on Tuesday though.
all these different appointments too between Gigi and I. various stuff from Dentist surgery to Derm for taking this cancery thing off my back she cut off last year. fucking thing feels like a pinch everytime it rubs against my shirt.
its a pre cancer squamis something. mutating ass mole.
that's what I get for being 1 shade above albino to look like a tan Californian when I was in my teens and 20s.
the sun is brutal
I fucking hate you Bradley
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2024-05-26 at 11:30 AM UTC
would it be easier to fly her to you?
2024-05-26 at 3:16 PM UTC
Definitely see her every chance you can. Mine passed away unexpectedly in 2018 and I regret not being able to see her more before she did pass away. I thought my siblings who lived with her were taking care of her (she shattered her kneecap, had like 5 surgeries and was pretty much bedridden before she died) but it turns out they weren't. If I knew that then I would have gotten down there to take care of her myself. Spend as much time with her as you can, that's something you won't regret.
