Cheapening Life through Chemistry: DMT.

1. 2023-08-31 at 3:27 AM UTC

   #1
   

   Bradley Black Hole
   I smoked DMT four times in the same night, alone in silence. The first one I put...
   
   I attempted to look these numbers up but they have eliminated HEROIC dose from their chart.
   
   Smoked/Vaporized DMT Dosages
   Threshold 2 - 5 mg
   Light 10 - 20 mg
   Common 20 - 40 mg
   Strong 40 - 60 mg
   
   LOL! Them numers got a lot lower, so I got a gram sent to me from a customer who wanted to hook up his RC Boy. For free my nigga!~!~!~ I had no real appreciation for any chemiacl except that super benzo that killed a bunch of people I know lol I'll think of it later, that was the only drug I really believed in the strength of.
   
   I did 100mg weighed up on my Gemini 20 mg scale 4 times in small pieces of a rolling paper, the 4th one I put 700mg (it came out to like 600 because the others were weighed heavy, but i wasn't too stupid to do it negligently as I pushed repeated heroic doses)
   
   Someone I thought the world of told me you can push into God if you do enough, and that was all my 18year old shaman ass needed to hear to know what to do.
   
   Major experience with LSD at this point so I could handle the mind bend.
   
   Bro so I do 2 of them, wow pretty cool, like 2 hits of LSD but it's rapid on and rapid off and different.
   
   I grab the third small paper pouch and drop that in the pipe, I unfortunately made a mistake in the silent darkness while tripping and grabbed the 700mg pouch and hit it just the like the first two. Unfortunately I thought it would be more of the same, I was greatly incorrect.
   
   I saw every single person I ever in my life sitting in little holes. You ever seen the movie Holes where they make them little kids dig a 6x6ft hole everyday to look for treasure. But this is the worst part, they were just digging to make webs and making bigger spider webs. Every person I ever knew was connected to people, like my momma and I had the strongest web and her ex boyfriend was the second strongest, and every person I knew a little bit had a small fibre.
   
   I'm 18 and a retarded research chemical vendor high on JWH sitting in his college dorm room alone in the dark.
   
   I"m like man this is real. I don't know how to un understand it.
   
   "Every person is just digging a hole so they have something to make the reason for their life, they are just building webs of people so they have something to show when the digger stops digging and they go on and they have this big ass web and deep hole."
   
   Fucking fucked me up, that was 12 years ago (I am 30 or 30 million years old) and I was just like damn. I looked at this fifth floor window I already popped the screen out of and I was like Do I jump?
   
   I thouht fuck it I see life for what life is,
   
   18 years later I have nightmares about it, I have used LSD four times in the last decade but when I feel like my mind approaches this subject I can't really appreciate the drug like I used to.
   
   I am afraid of using DMT again, when I was sent it the manufacturer of bulk. Fuck it they already got indicted in 2014 i can put the name out there, Better Bear Botanicals LLC (an inspirational name for me more later in life) uh sent me the best shit in the world i guess, he told me to watch a video about DMT and told him i'm not watching shit like that on my computer, so he said aliens and airplanes and lights flashing and stars and galaxies and incomprehensible shit, so I got hte last part of that and shit else, maybe it was ecause I was in teh dark and not at a techno concert djing or something? But I didn't see a planet, I saw an evil hand talking to the back of my skull and he made my life kinda shitty
   
   Like after that point I never did DMT again and kinda stopped caring about life.
   
   Maybe 5x 140mg Heroic doses at once fucked my brain up but it explains a lot if it did.
   
   I will say it was fucking awesome and that 20 second conversation with God himself cheapened my life and made me understand that life is kinda worthless, bro you're 1 in 10 billion people trying to seem important. IF you ate nothing but rice for the next.
   
   Let me describe this so simply wariat will understand it;
   
   If you ate only rice (5,000 grains per very large bowl) and you ate 2,000,000 that would be 666,660 meals you (at age 75x3 meals a day) eat about 86,000.
   
   You are one grain of rice. in the amount of rice a 75 year old man ate eating it at every meal x8...
   
   God don't give a fuck about you.
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2. 2023-08-31 at 4:18 AM UTC

   #2
   

   WALUIGI TACO STAND IS A REAL GAME Houston
   i did that stuff once it's pretty cool
3. 2023-09-15 at 7:58 PM UTC

   #3
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Bradley I smoked DMT four times in the same night, alone in silence. The first one I put…
   
   I attempted to look these numbers up but they have eliminated HEROIC dose from their chart.
   
   Smoked/Vaporized DMT Dosages
   Threshold 2 - 5 mg
   Light 10 - 20 mg
   Common 20 - 40 mg
   Strong 40 - 60 mg
   
   LOL! Them numers got a lot lower, so I got a gram sent to me from a customer who wanted to hook up his RC Boy. For free my nigga!~!~!~ I had no real appreciation for any chemiacl except that super benzo that killed a bunch of people I know lol I'll think of it later, that was the only drug I really believed in the strength of.
   
   I did 100mg weighed up on my Gemini 20 mg scale 4 times in small pieces of a rolling paper, the 4th one I put 700mg (it came out to like 600 because the others were weighed heavy, but i wasn't too stupid to do it negligently as I pushed repeated heroic doses)
   
   Someone I thought the world of told me you can push into God if you do enough, and that was all my 18year old shaman ass needed to hear to know what to do.
   
   Major experience with LSD at this point so I could handle the mind bend.
   
   Bro so I do 2 of them, wow pretty cool, like 2 hits of LSD but it's rapid on and rapid off and different.
   
   I grab the third small paper pouch and drop that in the pipe, I unfortunately made a mistake in the silent darkness while tripping and grabbed the 700mg pouch and hit it just the like the first two. Unfortunately I thought it would be more of the same, I was greatly incorrect.
   
   I saw every single person I ever in my life sitting in little holes. You ever seen the movie Holes where they make them little kids dig a 6x6ft hole everyday to look for treasure. But this is the worst part, they were just digging to make webs and making bigger spider webs. Every person I ever knew was connected to people, like my momma and I had the strongest web and her ex boyfriend was the second strongest, and every person I knew a little bit had a small fibre.
   
   I'm 18 and a retarded research chemical vendor high on JWH sitting in his college dorm room alone in the dark.
   
   I"m like man this is real. I don't know how to un understand it.
   
   "Every person is just digging a hole so they have something to make the reason for their life, they are just building webs of people so they have something to show when the digger stops digging and they go on and they have this big ass web and deep hole."
   
   Fucking fucked me up, that was 12 years ago (I am 30 or 30 million years old) and I was just like damn. I looked at this fifth floor window I already popped the screen out of and I was like Do I jump?
   
   I thouht fuck it I see life for what life is,
   
   18 years later I have nightmares about it, I have used LSD four times in the last decade but when I feel like my mind approaches this subject I can't really appreciate the drug like I used to.
   
   I am afraid of using DMT again, when I was sent it the manufacturer of bulk. Fuck it they already got indicted in 2014 i can put the name out there, Better Bear Botanicals LLC (an inspirational name for me more later in life) uh sent me the best shit in the world i guess, he told me to watch a video about DMT and told him i'm not watching shit like that on my computer, so he said aliens and airplanes and lights flashing and stars and galaxies and incomprehensible shit, so I got hte last part of that and shit else, maybe it was ecause I was in teh dark and not at a techno concert djing or something? But I didn't see a planet, I saw an evil hand talking to the back of my skull and he made my life kinda shitty
   
   Like after that point I never did DMT again and kinda stopped caring about life.
   
   Maybe 5x 140mg Heroic doses at once fucked my brain up but it explains a lot if it did.
   
   I will say it was fucking awesome and that 20 second conversation with God himself cheapened my life and made me understand that life is kinda worthless, bro you're 1 in 10 billion people trying to seem important. IF you ate nothing but rice for the next.
   
   Let me describe this so simply wariat will understand it;
   
   If you ate only rice (5,000 grains per very large bowl) and you ate 2,000,000 that would be 666,660 meals you (at age 75x3 meals a day) eat about 86,000.
   
   You are one grain of rice. in the amount of rice a 75 year old man ate eating it at every meal x8…
   
   God don't give a fuck about you.

   
   I was never able to get my hands on DMT, the closest I ever got to a psyhedlic that was that effective was salvia. I smoked a bowl of 10x extract and got stuck in a time loop and the world started spinning.
4. 2023-09-15 at 8:19 PM UTC

   #4
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   What I’m getting from this is you were molested by your mother’s ex boyfriend
5. 2023-09-15 at 8:30 PM UTC

   #5
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Fox What I’m getting from this is you were molested by your mother’s ex boyfriend

   
   If anything, I molested him.
6. 2023-09-15 at 8:58 PM UTC

   #6
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Bradley Let me describe this so simply wariat will understand it;
   
   If you ate only rice (5,000 grains per very large bowl) and you ate 2,000,000 that would be 666,660 meals you (at age 75x3 meals a day) eat about 86,000.
   
   You are one grain of rice. in the amount of rice a 75 year old man ate eating it at every meal x8…
   
   God don't give a fuck about you.

   
   I think your math is off a little there but I get what you’re saying. When I was a kid one of many existential crises was when I thought about how long could you live if you only lived for one day at a time, then at the end of the day you went into stasis for a hundred years, then woke up for another day. By the time you died, you’d only go a few million years in the future.
   
   A blink of an eye to the cosmos. So what does that make your life? It’s less than a grain of rice. You only have, if you’re lucky MAYBE 50 good years then the rest is shit, and then you die. That’s best case. You could also just die at any moment in a horrific accident.
   
   But then you think, even if you did live forever, eventually all the stars will burn out, and long before that most of the universe will have retreated beyond your cosmological horizon anyway where you can never interact with them again, you won’t even see the light from them anymore and you could certainly never travel to them. The amount of space and energy available to you goes down the further in the future you go.
   
   So the last source of thermodynamic free energy in the universe will probably be black holes, say you live in some artificial habitat that harnesses the energy of one. Well it might take 10^99 years or whatever, but even THAT will end, one day it’ll evaporate due to Hawking emissions and the only thing left will be scattered elementary particles and photons blasting thru space in all directions endlessly without anything being created ever again. Just nothing, forever.
   
   Then I think, what’s the difference between this happening in some far distant future that you can scarcely even imagine, and it happening RIGHT NOW. When you die that’s it it’s over, it might as well be the end of the universe because it’s the end of YOUR universe.
   
   Sometimes I wish I could fall into a black hole because then you could see it all happen. As you approach the event horizon you will bear witness to the end. You’ll see gas and dust light up the darkness and coalesce into stars again, then burn out or blow up, over and over again, you’ll see galaxies collide and merge and die, civilizations come and go, until eventually there’s nothing and then you turn into spaghetti and are eviscerated at an atomic level but at least you saw something no one else ever will, the end of everything, the end of consciousness.
   
   BUT hey we’re alive now I guess if anything means anything, that’s all you get. Live while you can because some day, nothing can.