Also the way he says at 5:29 "I build this narrative in my head I couldnt beat him so I didnt try". I feel the same about teenage girls under 18. Just because I got rejected rudely a couple times I built this narrative that I quit trying recently depsit egetting so close numerous times and pretty much fucking that just turning 17 yr old ukrainian chick. Like I need to regularly fuck 16 yr olds and i cant do it with this narrative in my head that prevents me from trying or even talkin to them because in my head I think "they probably think im old or look old".
