https://www.familie.pl/Forum-10-490/m1058195-1,Zboczenia-seksualne.html"I don't know how to define my problem exactly. I am 21 years old. I started masturbating early, I was 11 years old. I've never had any problems making friends. I started dating when I was 18. After a few months of 'normal' sex, it started to bore me. I didn't feel pleasure, so I started looking for fulfillment, although I was very horny. Three times a day sex is not enough for me. I started changing partners because sex with one was boring. There was sex with toys, threesomes, gang-bangs, but everything got boring after a while (a few months). It wasn't as fun as before. Fulfillment came only when someone severely humiliated me, humiliated me, beat me, caused me physical and mental pain. In the meantime, I had a few episodes of sex for money because I liked it when a man pays and then I 'belong' to him and he can do whatever he wants with me. Now I know that it had a destructive effect on my psyche (prostitution). It's getting harder and harder to find a person willing to play together, e.g. with piss, rough bdsm, or fisting. I'm getting more and more sexually frustrated... I can't cope, I'm constantly aroused... When I'm alone, I feel the strongest when I watch videos of sex with animals. On the one hand, they disgust me, on the other, they excite me .. I'm not ready to experience sex with a dog, for example, but I know it's only a matter of time. I'm concerned that I can't have an orgasm the 'normal' way, but my sensations have to be really strong. I haven't had a steady partner for a year. On the one hand, I'm afraid of meeting new men (they can hurt me or I can get infected), on the other hand... the desire for adrenaline and risk is stronger. I can't deal with it. I don't know where it came from in me.. I would like to be a normal woman who enjoys sex without, for example, choking.."
