If I'm not doing too well , or can't find some pride in my circumstances - that's when I don't reach out to old friends, or really give anyone who tries to contact me the time of day. IF I DID: After we hash out what they have going on , they're probably gonna turn the tables and extend that courtesy to me which I have found really sucks arse when all you have to say is SAME OLD SAME OLD, IM SUCKING
When I get on the upswing I'll feel like keeping that ball rolling, and doing the things I know that I should: like getting/keeping in touch with others.
I feel like from the outside that has to look really selfish, "he only calls when he has good news about himself". Honestly man none of it really makes any sense
