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Hey malice
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2017-05-13 at 2:17 AM UTCYou put yourself down too much man
You're probably one of the only people on this wasteland of a forum who watches the watchers, u dig? -
2017-05-13 at 4:03 AM UTCHey Malice, kill yourself.
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2017-05-13 at 6:11 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-13 at 7:05 AM UTCDon't kill yourself. There's many opportunities out there in this world. You have to be free. Do as you please.
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2017-05-13 at 7:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by SBTlauien Don't kill yourself. There's many opportunities out there in this world. You have to be free. Do as you please.
There can come a point where words fail, and there's just absolutely nothing you can say that will make a difference. I've read such an absurd amount, I wanted to experience the greatest literature, films, books on existentialism, I met with a psychologist weekly for 2 years, one for at least 1 after that, and it never helped, if anything it made me feel worse. I also have severe anhedonia and feel a complete lack of connection to others, a complete inability to relate to anyone, to find any meaning and fulfillment in life.
I cannot convey everything I've experienced, everything I've learned, that led to this.
I'm going to start Nardil tomorrow, and it has a pretty high chance of working if I can manage to stay on it and get a high enough dosage. I'm also going into therapy and will try to get out as much as possible, volunteer at some animal sanctuaries.
Can't guarantee it will work though, some people are just extremely treatment resistant, and there's something about Asperger's, these profound neurological differences, that seem to predispose you to some of the worst life outcomes.
I was wrong when I said I made a breakthrough, I'm still having serious thoughts of suicide, and erratic behavior can be an impending sign of it.
Ultimately, I can't tell you how it's going to turn out, but Lanny was probably right when he said I'll likely never get better. It could well be within a year, but at some point I'm going to have to make the decision. i have to be honest with myself and accept that due to everything, my life is very unlikely to have a happy ending.
There's nothing else to be said. I just have to wait and see, hope for the best.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-13 at 8:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice There can come a point where words fail, and there's just absolutely nothing you can say that will make a difference. I've read such an absurd amount, I wanted to experience the greatest literature, films, books on existentialism, I met with a psychologist weekly for 2 years, one for at least 1 after that, and it never helped, if anything it made me feel worse. I also have severe anhedonia and feel a complete lack of connection to others, a complete inability to relate to anyone, to find any meaning and fulfillment in life.
I cannot convey everything I've experienced, everything I've learned, that led to this.
I'm going to start Nardil tomorrow, and it has a pretty high chance of working if I can manage to stay on it and get a high enough dosage. I'm also going into therapy and will try to get out as much as possible, volunteer at some animal sanctuaries.
Can't guarantee it will work though, some people are just extremely treatment resistant, and there's something about Asperger's, these profound neurological differences, that seem to predispose you to some of the worst life outcomes.
I was wrong when I said I made a breakthrough, I'm still having serious thoughts of suicide, and erratic behavior can be an impending sign of it.
Ultimately, I can't tell you how it's going to turn out, but Lanny was probably right when he said I'll likely never get better. It could well be within a year, but at some point I'm going to have to make the decision. i have to be honest with myself and accept that due to everything, my life is very unlikely to have a happy ending.
There's nothing else to be said. I just have to wait and see, hope for the best.
you won't get better because you choose to be a pussy and rely on jedi medications, thats all lanny was implying
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2017-05-13 at 8:48 AM UTCmalice, you said all that cat fucking and 2 inch peen thing was a troll yes?
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2017-05-13 at 9:52 AM UTCyour all fucking losers
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2017-05-13 at 10:04 AM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist malice, you said all that cat fucking and 2 inch peen thing was a troll yes?
Yeah, people are fucking retarded and will fall for the stupidest shit. It's as dumb as believing most of the stories on 4chan.
After a while it just gets annoying as hell when people keep bringing up the same things for literally years, which have no effect on you except mild nuisance. Humanity is just capable of unbelievable stupidity.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-13 at 10:06 AM UTCNobody cares its not even that funny if it was true.
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2017-05-13 at 11:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice There can come a point where words fail, and there's just absolutely nothing you can say that will make a difference. I've read such an absurd amount, I wanted to experience the greatest literature, films, books on existentialism, I met with a psychologist weekly for 2 years, one for at least 1 after that, and it never helped, if anything it made me feel worse. I also have severe anhedonia and feel a complete lack of connection to others, a complete inability to relate to anyone, to find any meaning and fulfillment in life.
I cannot convey everything I've experienced, everything I've learned, that led to this.
I'm going to start Nardil tomorrow, and it has a pretty high chance of working if I can manage to stay on it and get a high enough dosage. I'm also going into therapy and will try to get out as much as possible, volunteer at some animal sanctuaries.
Can't guarantee it will work though, some people are just extremely treatment resistant, and there's something about Asperger's, these profound neurological differences, that seem to predispose you to some of the worst life outcomes.
I was wrong when I said I made a breakthrough, I'm still having serious thoughts of suicide, and erratic behavior can be an impending sign of it.
Ultimately, I can't tell you how it's going to turn out, but Lanny was probably right when he said I'll likely never get better. It could well be within a year, but at some point I'm going to have to make the decision. i have to be honest with myself and accept that due to everything, my life is very unlikely to have a happy ending.
There's nothing else to be said. I just have to wait and see, hope for the best.
Why waste all that time and money. Just kill yourself. -
2017-05-13 at 11:08 AM UTC
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2017-05-13 at 3:05 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Yeah, people are fucking retarded and will fall for the stupidest shit. It's as dumb as believing most of the stories on 4chan.
After a while it just gets annoying as hell when people keep bringing up the same things for literally years, which have no effect on you except mild nuisance. Humanity is just capable of unbelievable stupidity.
i recon all this depression shit is just a troll too then. -
2017-05-13 at 3:07 PM UTChe's not even that depressed he's just a faggot that refuses to work.
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2017-05-13 at 3:10 PM UTCyeah I'm calling shenanigans on this right now.
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2017-05-13 at 3:14 PM UTCHeres a real brain scratcher...
Maybe the reason he's so depressed, his life sucks so much and he needs all these gay drugs to function.
Is because he refuses to grow up and join society, hmmm????. That seems like the only problem to me. Whats the point in trying to make yourself the ultimate chemical man and live off stacks and supplements when you don't even fucking leave the house?. It's a real waste of an existence because you could actually contribute to society if you put effort into something besides shitposting and being an edgelord. -
2017-05-13 at 3:17 PM UTC
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2017-05-13 at 3:18 PM UTC
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2017-05-13 at 3:20 PM UTCYou people are such scumbags that you don't even deserve proper punctuation, grammar or logic.
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2017-05-13 at 3:29 PM UTC
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