2022-06-15 at 8:34 PM UTC
Also turkeys lately. Fuck them things, people brake suddenly for them and want to take photos
2022-06-15 at 10:01 PM UTC
Just ask Alfred Hitchcock.
2022-06-16 at 3:40 AM UTC
RIPtotse
victim of incest
[my adversative decurved garbo]
I just sent my gf to get 4 soft taco supremes no tomatoes and a bean burrito extra onion for me
2022-06-16 at 3:47 AM UTC
Man I miss beefy nacho loaded grillers :(
2022-06-17 at 2:46 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
Eating less and drinking a little bit but not too much has me feeling healthier than I have for a while. Suboxone and no red meat or fried greasy foods has my stomach and head feeling a little better. No wonder all the poor people are fat and depressed
2022-06-18 at 1:26 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
Earlier I sat in my truck smoking weed and staring off into space having an existential crisis, then became acutely aware I was having an existential crisis but couldn't stop it. Eventually I came inside and talked to my baby mom, then sat on the couch staring off into space until she left, came back to find me in the same position (fucked around on phone a bit) and asked wtf was up.
Idk why I never really get anxiety unless it's sensory specific ptsd influenced and even then not much. Instead I just get depressed and super lost feeling. I guess it could be worse. Everyone around me seems so anxious all the time meanwhile I'm just washed up middle aged, depressed and stressed and lost. Idk I gotta change something
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2022-06-18 at 1:46 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo
Earlier I sat in my truck smoking weed and staring off into space having an existential crisis, then became acutely aware I was having an existential crisis but couldn't stop it. Eventually I came inside and talked to my baby mom, then sat on the couch staring off into space until she left, came back to find me in the same position (fucked around on phone a bit) and asked wtf was up.
Idk why I never really get anxiety unless it's sensory specific ptsd influenced and even then not much. Instead I just get depressed and super lost feeling. I guess it could be worse. Everyone around me seems so anxious all the time meanwhile I'm just washed up middle aged, depressed and stressed and lost. Idk I gotta change something
Cringe^
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2022-06-18 at 1:52 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo
Earlier I sat in my truck smoking weed and staring off into space having an existential crisis, then became acutely aware I was having an existential crisis but couldn't stop it. Eventually I came inside and talked to my baby mom, then sat on the couch staring off into space until she left, came back to find me in the same position (fucked around on phone a bit) and asked wtf was up.
Idk why I never really get anxiety unless it's sensory specific ptsd influenced and even then not much. Instead I just get depressed and super lost feeling. I guess it could be worse. Everyone around me seems so anxious all the time meanwhile I'm just washed up middle aged, depressed and stressed and lost. Idk I gotta change something
I remember when I used to have existential crises, when I was more acutely aware of the proximity of death.
I have learned to distract myself with smaller crises, like bullshit crises over money I don't need, girls I don't like, etc.
Once you have enough bullshit going on the big questions, like the ones about existence itself, get lost in the noise.
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2022-06-18 at 2:12 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo
I always feel like I'm going to die relatively soon and always fixate on money, females and my adversarial relationship with the state. This can't be all life is. If I didn't have kids I would be such a fucking asshole.
I don't have kids and don't regard myself as having females (groceries still disagrees) or an adversarial relationship to the state. I always had just enough money, now I have too much, but that only due to my very low standard of living.
I'm sure I posted about it before, but I remember when I was in hospital in 2009. It was the most carefree period of my life. It was just before an emergency surgery, and the trend was clear, straight downhill with my healt, and I assumed 100% I was going to die. They scheduled my surgery for a monday, then said they'd do it friday cos I probably wouldn't be around monday.
All I wanted to do at the time was explore and watch nature documentaries. I had no interest in anything else like money or girls or anything like that.
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