Lately I've been thinking about it alot. Some days I think I'm going to die this day, sometimes I think its a week, sometimes I feel I can mathematically work out the age I will die. I have someone close to me who may die in a year or so and that scares me. I'm constantly thinking people I care about are going to die in freak accidents and this makes me want to carry more weapons. I do perimeter patrols like a fucking absolute weirdo and actively try to do good things to reverse karma and I think will appease Allah. I constantly think large forces are working against me. I feel I'm on borrowed time one way or another, be it death or jail, I just hope people who deserve to live, live well and those who do not deserve to have their negative impact nullified.
So how much u think about deff? I think about sex alot too but not as much as wariat. I also don't watch porn much but I tend to imagine women naked and what having zex with them would be like pretty frequently. I have only had sex with 2 women since I been out but have been trolling tinder and trying to weird out local females but I can't find it in me to feign motivation of developing a relationship of any kind. I wonder if this is how people become hikkis or cereal killahs. I think about death in general alot though, generally murders and methods but nothing specific, just a killer bee killed world homespice lo mein?
Also the condition of our world. And Yes its happen before at the Who concert and some other rock singer but the performers stopped while this weirdo kept on going
also just in the past hour
A9-year-old who was injured at the Astroworld Festival has died, attorneys representing the boy's family confirmed to CBS News. Ezra Blount was trampled during the deadly crowd surge, according to a lawsuit filed by his family.
Number 10 who died and the second to die in 2 days. so it's 10 now
Originally posted by Spezmose
Also the condition of our world. And Yes its happen before at the Who concert and some other rock singer but the performers stopped while this weirdo kept on going
Pure greed. I heard it was being livestreamed over Apple Music, which is why he kept making noise into the microphone the whole time, including that creepy footage where it looks like he's doing some sort of demonic chant over the guy being evacuated.
A lot more last year when j wanted to kill myself. Now im just kinda numb. I think of it in context of that one day ill be entirely used up and have no more time to enjoy or experience what lofe was to offer. I think about that often.
Originally posted by General Butt.Naked
A lot more last year when j wanted to kill myself. Now im just kinda numb. I think of it in context of that one day ill be entirely used up and have no more time to enjoy or experience what lofe was to offer. I think about that often.
I don't want to die, in fact just the opposite, which is why it is annoying. Sometimes I think I might die of old age and be "all used up" and that sounds like the best option for me, however that doesn't seem likely for some reason. I want to do as much living as possible in the meantime but it's very fucking difficult
Ajax
African Astronaut
[rumor the placative aphakia]
I don’t think about myself dying all that often, but I think about death probably daily. After watching people I care about die and being responsible for keeping people I care about from dying, it’s hard not to think about potential threats to the pack which include death.
I am also aware of my entrances/exits and who is in the room when I go places. Not in an obsessive way, but in a being aware of your surroundings way.
Death is part of living. People who think about life without also considering its opposite (death) are delusioned into a false sense of reality where their expectations of life are misaligned with the experience of reality, which will eventually result in ultimate despair.
Contentment comes from the acceptance of eventual death.
I know what you're thinking, 'cause right now I'm thinking the same thing. Actually, I've been thinking it ever since I got here: Why oh why didn't I take the BLUE pill?
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