2021-08-09 at 4:39 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ
Lol I'm trying but I don't think its mania. I'm just genuinely trying to do some new things and I've been listening to a lot of helpful stuff online to try and incorporate in me loife. I was just manic one time and that was Prozac induced and gave me lots of BAD IDEAS. I'm drug free currently. And just GOOD IDEAS.
But we shall see. I believe in myself for once. Like, as in, I can be more than mediocre and content with said mediocrity.
See if your town has a "makerspace" I've been doing a few classes at the one here in Houston. Classes are cheap and you can learn lots of things from 3d printing to welding...all the while making new weird and nerdy friends...at my last class I met a guy who worked for NASA and went on a Safari to Kenya just before covid...I thought about making up some lies too but didn't.
https://www.txrxlabs.org/
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2021-08-09 at 4:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ
I just get slightly defensive when its brought up (my mom even mentioned it), because I know if it is a manic state, that means I will inevitably have a really bad crash, and this isn't gonna be thr start to something more permanent for myself.
I'm not like expecting the world change overnight and pure sunshine and rainbows, but if I believe this won't last, then it…won't last. My brain has always done that and im fucking FINALLY beginning to have a little more faith in myself than I ever have, for a long time anyway.
Just you popping back in feels like another little good omen. Tee fucking heeeeee!!!!!!!!
I understand that very very very well and if you believe me or not but I thought to myself "I hope he doesn't take it the wrong way" while typing it out because I know I would have lol. I know that feeling very well and what helped me to get over it a bit is doing good things regardless of how I feel so even when I feel down I still do it and that tells me it's not just an episode. I've been there, too.
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2021-08-09 at 6:30 PM UTC
[quote pk=1397648 author="General Butt.Naked
I identify with this very mu
Although im floating in my mediocre sea rn so
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It is very helpful at least to me to hear some of this positive reinforcement and the fact that y'all can empathize with the feelings. For realziez.
M8 im in the mediocrity shit show too, and I may be for the foreseeable future, but im gonna get the fuck out of it one way or another. Its crazy to me how just some very simple little things throught the day can have such a big impact, and it usually seems to snowball in a positive way which makes it that much better.
It also makes me very happy to see you and other people also doing at least marginally better in relation to these bouts of depression and even borderline suicidal thoughts. I can't relate to the physical pains that you personally have dealt with but I hope that that is improving somewhat for you.
A big thing for me is needing accountability so apologies in advance if my faggot-tier life updates like this are cringe and obnoxious (they are) but I do much better when im putting myself out there and not isolating, even if that means just forcing myself to make some posts online when I don't necessarily want to.
Blah blah blah. I'm still gonna kill myself every night somehow. Tonight I am boiling myself alive into some macaroni and cheese.
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2021-08-09 at 8:39 PM UTC
Saving a European honeybee from certain death by gently scooping him/her out of the swimming pool and placing on pool deck. Now it's time for an air dry as i blow on my beloved local pollinator. The ultimate satisfaction is when they, apparently unharmed, gently fly away. πβ€π
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2021-08-09 at 8:40 PM UTC
Originally posted by WellHung
Saving a European honeybee from certain death by gently scooping him/her out of the swimming pool and placing on pool deck. Now it's time for an air dry as i blow on my beloved local pollinator. The ultimate satisfaction is when they, apparently unharmed, gently fly away. πβ€π
Perhaps a little sugar water would help him on his way too.
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2021-08-09 at 8:53 PM UTC
They would probably appreciate a blow job from Mattchew as rumor has it he's pretty good at that.
2021-08-09 at 9:02 PM UTC
I just posted something in the "What's the last thing you bought?" thread to find your answer.
2021-08-09 at 9:08 PM UTC
No, I don't want your job.
2021-08-09 at 11:15 PM UTC
POLECAT
POLECAT is a motherfucking ferret
[my presentably immunised ammonification]
just got done takin the black bed off the green toyota, then took the green bed off the red toyota,, then put the black bed on the red toyota and the green bed on the green toyota...
tried to put the new used rust free back bumper on the green toyota but the mounts were on backwards so we had to PB blaster the bolts and tomorrow I'll flip em over to fit the green toyota.
it must have been on a toyota that has a 2 inck body lift so they turned the mounts upside down to raise the back bumper.
2021-08-09 at 11:25 PM UTC
You and your wet towelsβ¦
