2021-04-08 at 3:24 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo
I'm just going to post stuff here. Idc what anyone else does.
Life is confusing. Baby mom has open wounds and makes things worse. Girl I cheat on her with is kind of a boring loser. I don't relate and she doesn't fuck rough enough but I wish I felt as stable, content and comfortable as she does.
I miss drugs and also sobriety.
I need to deal with the demons inside of me. I'm eating myself up. I hate most things and shit seems pointless and boring. I have a pretty gr8 life on paper but I never ever, ever feel free.
I talk to girls and fantasize about how they will make my life better and I'll be happy, until I get too close and realize they definitely won't, lol, then I feel like even more things are pointless.
I don't trust anybody and want to do file lens to people alot. Don't wanna go to jail tho. I feel like I deserve better but can't find a way to break the cycle and get there
I need to start writing or doing something creative.
OP is a boring faggot. Go to sleep, you're just frustrated and want genuine intimacy that can't be obtained through sex or bullshitting people. Your life is retarded and dysfunctional, it might get better or it might not, but either way, shut the fuck up.
Fuck that hole in my stomach is really never gonna get filled huh?
What a selfish dick head
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2021-04-08 at 3:27 PM UTC
Originally posted by Robert Mugabe
What a selfish dick head
Put a sock in it, Rockjaw. At least ur not bragging about earning 48,000 pounds a year (a lower middle class income), 'day trading'.
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2021-04-08 at 3:29 PM UTC
Grow up. Man up. Get serious. Evolve.
2021-04-08 at 10:52 PM UTC
Wariat
Marine/Preteen Biologist
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2021-04-18 at 2:44 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
I had blueballs from drinking with this girl then driving her home, aggressively trying to rape her in my vehicle then she got out and I'm full of shame, guilt and regret. They say guilt is "I did something bad" and shame is "I am bad" well I did something bad BECAUSE I AM BAD BITCH AND I'LL FUCKING DO IT AGAIN. I did however learn of a song that resonates deep within me and always will. I'm a fucking mess. I hate having to do secret things. I want something to kill all my feelings and revert into a numb, dumb ball but I take opiate replacements so nothing works LOL CUCKT I PLAYED MYSELF
I'm not nearly as depressed as I was a month or so ago. Now I'm back to being tortured by myself. It's honestly much better. I feel more relatable to the common man/woman/jerkoff. It's kinda funny when I'm social I can fake it but it's bewildering that this is how people go about life. It's sad. I'm really no different in some ways, I just have a different path. I'm very blessed, very fortunate and God has given me so much to be grateful for, I hope I never become complacent and my bounty never seems well deserved. I need to breathe though and give something to the world. I'm legit thinking of becoming a volunteer firefighter as part of my midlife crisis. Things happen for a reason. I might fall back into being a piece of shit and feel happier for a while before I self destruct. Before I self destruct. B4 I SLF DSTRCT.
Before I sell dis truck
Beef whore myself district
2021-04-18 at 3:55 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
Also, My goddaughters grandmother died so I have a funeral to go to now. First one I've been to in a while and it will be a weird dynamic for sure. My former really good friend's brother died a week before too. Everyone is dropping. The survivors will be left immeasurably strong
