I'm just going to post stuff here. Idc what anyone else does.
Life is confusing. Baby mom has open wounds and makes things worse. Girl I cheat on her with is kind of a boring loser. I don't relate and she doesn't fuck rough enough but I wish I felt as stable, content and comfortable as she does.
I miss drugs and also sobriety.
I need to deal with the demons inside of me. I'm eating myself up. I hate most things and shit seems pointless and boring. I have a pretty gr8 life on paper but I never ever, ever feel free.
I talk to girls and fantasize about how they will make my life better and I'll be happy, until I get too close and realize they definitely won't, lol, then I feel like even more things are pointless.
I don't trust anybody and want to do file lens to people alot. Don't wanna go to jail tho. I feel like I deserve better but can't find a way to break the cycle and get there
I need to start writing or doing something creative.
OP is a boring faggot. Go to sleep, you're just frustrated and want genuine intimacy that can't be obtained through sex or bullshitting people. Your life is retarded and dysfunctional, it might get better or it might not, but either way, shut the fuck up.
Fuck that hole in my stomach is really never gonna get filled huh?
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I guess my difference is that I don’t really contemplate a better scenario, lol I just kinda live & ignore everyone until I need something, then I take & I’m gone. I don’t commit but I’m only with him because it’s safe.
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Originally posted by DontTellEm
I guess my difference is that I don’t really contemplate a better scenario, lol I just kinda live & ignore everyone until I need something, then I take & I’m gone. I don’t commit but I’m only with him because it’s safe.
I've been on n off with my baby momz for a few years trying to help her become a better person even when she's not ready. Just trying to break someones obvious coping cycles when I have my own advanced stage sickle cell super coping cycles that have evolved from ones I see in her/other people. It's boring. Same cycles suck. I need change. I Love people in my life but I need a big change. I feel people are just trying to hurt me or corrupt me and fuck up my vibe no matter what I try to do. I have faith other possibilities exist but there's so much pain and shadows hanging over me making it difficult.
I need to cleanse my negativity and anger
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Originally posted by DontTellEm
Ya. Life is weird & Ive yet to figure out why I’m so terrified of ppl. More specifically, them knowing me or them seeing more than I wanna show.
Yeah, being vulnerable is fucking terrifying, especially because it's relinquishing control and by doing that you're not forcing the outcomes that you want to achieve. You got nothing to worry about. I really don't have anything to worry about. I'm dripping in toxic masculinity I need to shit out. I wanna disappear for a day, turn off my phones, go hang out with someone I've never met and tell them I have a different name and try to reset my brain. Bet it won't work.
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I like this phenomenally gay song. I really just can't be monogomous with my braby mana. I'll be miserable and I can't deal with it. I keep hemorrhaging money like crazy over stupid useless things I have nothing to show for afterwards. I'm going to start working soon which will be awesome af. Meditation is helping me alot. I have to start writing something and I like writing lonehand best to get the juices flowing, sometimes while listening to music. I'm incredibly blessed in a lot of ways. I can't believe my age. Sometimes I feel alot older, sometimes a lot younger, but either way I can't predict when I will die. I know I'm much better prepared for a zombie apocalypse scenario than the average idiot. You can come over to my house if that happens if you're my friend. Everyone who's posted ITT so far is my friend and can come. We can hang out and watch old starsky and hutch episodes and dance to Iggy Pop and the Stooges and throw pizza at the wall. We'll have a few slaves for sure, they can clean it up. It's all I have to look forward to. My son is a fucking boss tho. You gotta be mad respectful. Lack of respect results in some bullitz
Originally posted by DontTellEm
I guess my difference is that I don’t really contemplate a better scenario, lol I just kinda live & ignore everyone until I need something, then I take & I’m gone. I don’t commit but I’m only with him because it’s safe.
Originally posted by DontTellEm
Ya. Life is weird & Ive yet to figure out why I’m so terrified of ppl. More specifically, them knowing me or them seeing more than I wanna show.
Originally posted by WellHung
It assures me that those who seek contentment & status via materialism are foolish and misguided. It also signals to me that you have a small penis.
This is true, except for the small penis part. I would say that if you are seeking status than materialism is a good way to go about it but you will be left empty and when your possessions leave you your status will be fleeting.
I think I'm going to get my contentment and status by my kids being awesome people and leeching off how cool they are. Either that or writing a book or inventing something. If none of that takes off tho at least I'll have some stuff to occupy myself with until I drive myself off a cliff
