I'm sad on the inside in a way i can't really itch bro.
Maybe it's from fucked up shit happening to me, maybe it's from fucked up shit I did, maybe it's cuz I'm the same fucked up person as you are, reading this. We can't change anything, but we can change how we feel artficially by inserting drugs into ourselves.
I enjoy doing that and so do you, some seem to love it so much they chase it till they die, others chase money, you chase orally satisfying every cock like your mother did when she was your age, hopefully we can manage our use to something that doesn't kill us. If not, I just hope it doesn't kill me.
Junkies live and junkies die, but in the end, we all got high.
I've bbeen smoking dabs all day, i don't wanan do coke, i am gonna take 2 sleeping pils right before my friend comes over (gay stuff) and with him i'm probably gonna smoke my shitty weed and maybe give him a dab or two
probabaly gonna combo that with 4 cigarettes over the next three hours, 20-40 ounces of water, and probably 2 of these pills they gave me for anxiety (i was going to try to get xanax, as part of a get money come up longterm goal) and i try it, it's ok, with ambien it really makes me say dumb ass shit
IG I told that gay dude i'm goig non dates with (not the latino i slaped who got scared of me) that i love him and always have (Wwe h ave known each other 4 days) but i was doing a bunch of ambien and cocaine speed balls.
Gotta drive my friend to the doctors so he can get idk like his eyes played with with a lazer or some gay shit, i'fmma drive him at like 10. So this will be an early nght, otherwise i would be doinug the bundy & cocaine, ambien & RedBull combo like i plan to ASAP to celebrate not me, but what it's like to live better with chemistry
I hope i cleared up major focal points if anything doesn't make sense it's because i'm really high and kinda trying to think of 3 thinsg and watch my base in starcraft 2
Take up to 3 a day as needed throughout the day for acute anxiety.
I pop like 2 or 3 with the 2 sleeping pills land then go get drunk and steal stuff from walmart and forget that i'm an alcoholic and sstay drunk for like two or three days
but shit is topped drinking on my own after 2 or 3 which is what happened like a month ago
so in 2 months i've gotten shitty drunk for like 2 occasions each lasting a couple of days
that's my demon, bro. I know i offten make jokes and shit, but like my drinking is so bad it gives me heart paina nd organs hurt and i can't stop and i shake and ge tstick and shit and then i'll stop drinking for a couple days to one time it was like 4 years -4 1/2 years
but like i said i haven't had a drink in 2 days and I Feel goood space nigger, and i hope you do too, wish or without the drugs, cuz evven if oyu're a piee of shit, you deserve some level of peace
