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Conclusions I've reached from being semisober
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2021-02-27 at 2:23 AM UTCSemisober meaning on December 27th I stopped doing heroin, cocaine, benzos, fentanyl, pain pills. Cannabinoids, etc and went to detox
Stayed at detox for a week, got medication adjusted and inducted on suboxone.
Since I've been out of detox. I've only gotten high maybe 8 times
I do 500mg propylhexedrine every Friday or atleast once a week. Done this 6 separate occasions total.
Did 2nd plat bundy doses twice, both being about 500 odd mg
I do take benadryl in doses of like, 200-250 every now and then and combine with suboxone, listen to MU, delta and theta binaural beats depending on mood, or out of the urantia audiobook
I've realized, with all my near death encounters, running across 8 lanes of 70-90mph traffic and surviving, a 20+ mile walk over 12 hours on speed with very little water ended up having muscle tissue break down and acute kidney failure
Bottle to the head and immense bleeding ... many spice overdoses, 15g phenibut OD, 500mg loperamide OD, 4 gram T-PAIN OD, 360MG methadone OD, many many benadryl ODs, 3 odd cases of serotonin syndrome , Nardil induced rhabdomyolysis, Ativan WD induced catatonia seizures and hallucinations, bath salt excursions, cardiac mishaps.., huffing duster, huffing starter fluid, huffing and drinking butane
I've managed to come out with my intelligence, craving for knowledge, and higher reasoning skills intact. Major deficits to impulse control, striatal dopamine, ventral tegmental dopamine, mid brain dopamine and limbic system dysregulation
Honestly. If I didn't have a few stints of taking 2 or 3 nootropics for months back when I was 15,16. And 17 I would've probably somewhere down the line became a vegetativeroy. For real. Im sure alot of the obscure drugs I did CONTRIBUTED to my eccentric brain function in a good way
Even when im neurologically severely impaired I do spend a great deal of my time high researching various brain functions. Diseases, pharmacology. History, and also playing guitar. Honing my music skills over years. Via drug help I've mixed mastered performed made artwork for and assembled:
Stiffchick.bandcamp.com
Theschizoids.bandcamp.com
Shamby.bandcamp.com
Lockedinprism.bandcamp.com
Therainmen.bandcamp.com
Sperglords.bandcamp.com
Coughgelandthebundys.bandcamp.com
Thecarpetsurfers.bandcamp.com
And MORE
tldr: Keep your brain active when ur fucked upThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2021-02-27 at 2:44 AM UTCYou drank butane? Why?
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2021-02-27 at 2:46 AM UTC
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2021-02-27 at 3:49 AM UTC
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2021-02-27 at 4:26 AM UTC
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2021-02-27 at 6:18 AM UTCI've always got the impression OP makes a point of his excessive drug use as a measurement of his edge.
Go fuck yourself. You've ruined your life taking mediocre drugs that don't even give you good feels. You smoke spice as opposed to weed, and take shitty dumbass scripts when you could be snorting major cocaine.
You fail at failing life. I can honestly say despite the toll my drug use has taken on my body, I've got a million memories as opposed to making shitty videos in a bathroom hacking my rotten teeth out looking like a meth'd out transvestite.
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2021-02-27 at 7:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dissociator Semisober meaning on December 27th I stopped doing heroin, cocaine, benzos, fentanyl, pain pills. Cannabinoids, etc and went to detox
Stayed at detox for a week, got medication adjusted and inducted on suboxone.
Since I've been out of detox. I've only gotten high maybe 8 times
LMAO you've gotten high 8 times this year, you know nothing about sobriety.
Straight Edge means I'm better than you. Get on my level. -
2021-02-27 at 8:51 AM UTC
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2021-02-27 at 11:16 AM UTCi am glad you are alive
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2021-02-27 at 3:26 PM UTCI'm glad people like OP exist to remind me of the dangers of doing shitty drugs.
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2021-02-27 at 3:59 PM UTC
Originally posted by Robert Mugabe I've always got the impression OP makes a point of his excessive drug use as a measurement of his edge.
Go fuck yourself. You've ruined your life taking mediocre drugs that don't even give you good feels. You smoke spice as opposed to weed, and take shitty dumbass scripts when you could be snorting major cocaine.
You fail at failing life. I can honestly say despite the toll my drug use has taken on my body, I've got a million memories as opposed to making shitty videos in a bathroom hacking my rotten teeth out looking like a meth'd out transvestite.
Kill yourself
No.
I just do drugs cause I lack the fortitude to live sober and just "deal wiff it" in terms of uncomfortsble or unpleasant emotions.
I used to be an edgelord severe.. like zurvector stimmy bingus level z00t z⁰⁰mer. Thougjt i was the coolest thing since split atoms
Then i realized im extremely autistic and since ive become more self aware of that I try to not put on any airs or play myself up eithdr irl or online, as i just end up looking like a dancing german bassist dweeb with hank hill glasses and carl wheezer sternum -
2021-02-27 at 4:13 PM UTCYeah but you do literally like the worst drugs. I think some people here may miss the fact that you referenced doing not one, not two, but THREE over the counter substances just recently. You have multiple overdoses on all the worst drugs.
Like dude, I've done a lot of different stuff too. But at least I found drugs that are actually good to abuse. And you know what? I wasn't stupid enough to overdose on them a shit load of times either. Like, 15g of phenibut? Just what the fuck? Why. It's just unpleasant and nauseating at higher doses. And THREE cases of serotonin syndrome? Like dude come the fuck on. I know you're not stupid because you actually do your research, but that almost makes it worse.
Why can't you just smoke weed? Do opiates? Psychedelics. Get into cocaine or meth. Go full out on nootropics. Be a drunk, even. Delta-8 is really cheap right now, you could use that. Or Crouton. Literally like fucking anything else other than benzedrex inhalers, benedryl, and bundy. There are better stimulants, better hallucinogens, and better dissociatives. I don't understand how you made it to adulthood still getting all your drugs from Walgreens. -
2021-02-27 at 4:28 PM UTC
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2021-02-27 at 5:11 PM UTC
Originally posted by Antifa Member Yeah but you do literally like the worst drugs. I think some people here may miss the fact that you referenced doing not one, not two, but THREE over the counter substances just recently. You have multiple overdoses on all the worst drugs.
Like dude, I've done a lot of different stuff too. But at least I found drugs that are actually good to abuse. And you know what? I wasn't stupid enough to overdose on them a shit load of times either. Like, 15g of phenibut? Just what the fuck? Why. It's just unpleasant and nauseating at higher doses. And THREE cases of serotonin syndrome? Like dude come the fuck on. I know you're not stupid because you actually do your research, but that almost makes it worse.
Why can't you just smoke weed? Do opiates? Psychedelics. Get into cocaine or meth. Go full out on nootropics. Be a drunk, even. Delta-8 is really cheap right now, you could use that. Or Crouton. Literally like fucking anything else other than benzedrex inhalers, benedryl, and bundy. There are better stimulants, better hallucinogens, and better dissociatives. I don't understand how you made it to adulthood still getting all your drugs from Walgreens. -
2021-03-01 at 10:03 PM UTC
Originally posted by Antifa Member better dissociatives
Man... bundy is great. Say what you will about benzedrex or especially benadryl, but the biggest problem with bundy is formulation. Saying "bundy is a shitty dissociative" is like saying "cocaine is a shitty stimulant" because the only cocaine you can get is 95% baby laxative and lidocaine by weight. Bundy is a fantastic and highly enjoyable dissociative. It's everything that comes bundled with it that sucks. -
2021-03-01 at 10:09 PM UTC
Originally posted by Meikai Man… bundy is great. Say what you will about benzedrex or especially benadryl, but the biggest problem with bundy is formulation. Saying "bundy is a shitty dissociative" is like saying "cocaine is a shitty stimulant" because the only cocaine you can get is 95% baby laxative and lidocaine by weight. Bundy is a fantastic and highly enjoyable dissociative. It's everything that comes bundled with it that sucks.
Okay but have you ever tried to purify the compound or licked the pure form of it because there is a reason it has all that other shit. The puking, the horrible inside twisting, people think is the sorbitol but I blame a lot of it on the drug itself.
I don't think there is any way to avoid it. Even if you make gel caps of pure bundy powder once they burst in your stomach the pain will be the same except a lot more concentrated instead of long drawn out and agonizing in the dilute form. The only way past it is with tolerance, in my opinion at least. -
2021-03-01 at 11:05 PM UTCIf it was any good of a drug it wouldn't be OTC
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2021-03-01 at 11:12 PM UTC
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2021-03-01 at 11:24 PM UTC
Originally posted by Antifa Member If it was any good of a drug it wouldn't be OTC
I don't do bundy anymore, but in lower doses where I wasn't incapacitated freaking out with some dank was always an interesting experience and always different. But to each their own, i personally would never mess with it again, it feels bad for your brain compared to smoking a sherm stick or doing some miss kitty ketamine
fun fact they call pcp a sherm stick because malcom x's lil cousin started selling pcp by dipping it in a cig and his name was sherman -
2021-03-01 at 11:30 PM UTC
Originally posted by Meikai They don't sell it in pure powder form OTC. I'm not gonna argue that bundy you get from Walgreens is anyter
ive never taken it in pure form so I wouldn't know how that is but I remember a guy on zoklet sold is in pure form but I never bothered with him.
years ago i was addicted to any opiate I could get my hands on and taking low to mid doses of budy with it was pretty comfortable. ever heard of morphidex it was an experimental drug, morphine combined with bundy to get the most out of pain killingness.
