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2020-12-27 at 11:23 AM UTCI'm tired of waiting for something to happen. And it seems like that's all I can do. The Craigslist job mill has closed up shop. This ID process bullshit takes too long. I'm hated by virtually everyone in my life. I don't have the energy or the willpower to meet people, and why would I want to meet anyone? So I can tell them I'm a disgusting homeless incestuous pedo who basically pimps his mom?
Guys like me don't get happy endings. I'm going nowhere fast, sinking, sinking. Fuck covid. Fuck hawaii. Fuck tweakers. I can't stand it anymore. I tried to cut my wrists the other day and my bitch mom stole the knife and threw it away. She hates me too much to let me die, I guess. She wants me to live on and suffer. She wants revenge. She's a nasty cunt.
My life is fucked and there's no way out. This salvation army ID bullshit will take weeks or months and even then I'm still fucked. It's live homeless for the rest of my life or just die now. Death is looking better every day. This is far from my last will and testament, but I am this close to just ending it.
The internet, ebooks, my cell phone is all I really have left. I know, pathetic, right? As soon as I run out of data on this line I'm planning to end my life. It's not like I can find a job to get money to refill it. I hate this. My mother told me things were fine over here. Then I get on a plane and it turns out she's selling herself for cash, and theres no God damn work. And then I get robbed at the beach and they take all of my forms of ID. That means no food stamps, no shelter, no military, no job corps. I'm fucked now. I don't have the patience to deal with the fucking salvation army anymore. Im supposed to wait for weeks or months and then only maybe will they be able to help me. This is bullshit. I'm ready to die. -
2020-12-27 at 1:22 PM UTCI spent over 4 years living on the street shooting fent and h all day everyday..what u need is a jail sentence or go to a rehab for a bit..6 months to a year..i know that during my active addiction I would have told u to fuck off if u even mentioned rehab or anything so I get it.u need to be grateful that your not physically addicted to something and only mentally..imho do a transporting style detox except with ur meff..so im assuming just sleep for days? that's what all my meth head cellys did ive only dont meth like 3 times so idk fr
anyway ur young man, and i didn't stop shooting dope everyday all day until I was 28..spent 15/16 until now physically addicted to opiates with no clean time..
I'm not perfect tho..evdn though I spent a year locked up I still fucked up when I got out. the difference is I recognized the problem and sought treatment( methadone) before I went totally down the tube, im not losing a 37 dollar an hr job. not this time.
it just takes a while to grow up basically...if I wasn't as mature as I am now I would've str8 fumbled everything when I got out of jail...now I have my house I own, a car, a beautiful fiance, and basically anything I really want.
what I am saying is nothing is permanent and your life will change. suicide solves nothing man. my best friend hung himself withdrawing from fent and meth. didnt solve anything, now his family doesn't have a son and his daughter doesn't have a father. suicide causes more pain and solves no problems. there is still hope if you are still alive, when you die its over no hope.
ur a fucking weirdo livingelegy and i dont particularly like you but i dont ever want to see someone die like that. your worth saving bro
pm me and ill help u get ur stupid id man -
2020-12-27 at 3:42 PM UTCtake psychedelics and take the pyramid journey to free your soul from all desire
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2020-12-27 at 3:44 PM UTC
Originally posted by RIPtotse I spent over 4 years living on the street shooting fent and h all day everyday..what u need is a jail sentence or go to a rehab for a bit..6 months to a year..i know that during my active addiction I would have told u to fuck off if u even mentioned rehab or anything so I get it.u need to be grateful that your not physically addicted to something and only mentally..imho do a transporting style detox except with ur meff..so im assuming just sleep for days? that's what all my meth head cellys did ive only dont meth like 3 times so idk fr
anyway ur young man, and i didn't stop shooting dope everyday all day until I was 28..spent 15/16 until now physically addicted to opiates with no clean time..
I'm not perfect tho..evdn though I spent a year locked up I still fucked up when I got out. the difference is I recognized the problem and sought treatment( methadone) before I went totally down the tube, im not losing a 37 dollar an hr job. not this time.
it just takes a while to grow up basically…if I wasn't as mature as I am now I would've str8 fumbled everything when I got out of jail…now I have my house I own, a car, a beautiful fiance, and basically anything I really want.
what I am saying is nothing is permanent and your life will change. suicide solves nothing man. my best friend hung himself withdrawing from fent and meth. didnt solve anything, now his family doesn't have a son and his daughter doesn't have a father. suicide causes more pain and solves no problems. there is still hope if you are still alive, when you die its over no hope.
ur a fucking weirdo livingelegy and i dont particularly like you but i dont ever want to see someone die like that. your worth saving bro
pm me and ill help u get ur stupid id man
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2020-12-27 at 3:44 PM UTCyes it is he's jeff hunter
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2020-12-27 at 3:45 PM UTC
Originally posted by RIPtotse imho do a transporting style detox except with ur meff..so im assuming just sleep for days? that's what all my meth head cellys did ive only dont meth like 3 times so idk fr
pretty much yeah, just sleep for like 4 days. don't off yourself IT may just be the comedown.
wait a couple weeks 2 even out, then do it with a clear mind, meditating on eternity beforehand.
good luck.
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2020-12-27 at 3:47 PM UTCi dont understand how come refugees with nothing on their back coukd go to the US and turn themselves into made men while genuine "native" americans wallow in sufferings and failures.
i mean srsly when even deceased people can vote .... why cant op get a job or something that can make money. -
2020-12-27 at 3:48 PM UTCyou really should take up on RIPtotse's offer... you'd be a fool not to.
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2020-12-27 at 3:51 PM UTC
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2020-12-27 at 4 PM UTCif ur still alive out ther i just wanna say, you don't capitalize small words in a title, maybe the last one but not anything in the middle. the "the's" and "i's"
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2020-12-27 at 4:02 PM UTC
Originally posted by Ghost take psychedelics and take the pyramid journey to free your soul from all desire
Man I hate you fucking Canadians. everything about you is bizarre as fuck. I just watched Videodrome and fuck. kind of like uhh Naked Lunch?
You fucking ripped off American Beat Poet an writer William Seward Burrough who wrote Naked Lunch in San Francisco North Beach in the 50-60s.
and you're all mongaloidal looking fucks. and you believe in sucking off the teet of the system.
David Cronenberg corrupted and bastardize a classic film "The Fly" with Vinent Price in the original and that got damn Apartment Dot Com weirdo who murdered Charles Bronsons wife and got away with it.
I bet David Cronenberg and Lorne Michaels and all the other fraternity types who came to America to work for the agenda G0dz of FollyWood
False Faux Athiest decendents of David pshhhhhh
Oh sure they'll call me an Anti-Semite but they are. How can you be a J'ew if you're an atheist. If you're an atheist then you don't believe in Shem. you're not a Semite then.
Make your stupid films in British Columbia and pretend you're filming in the North Western part of the US.
STAY OUT OF MY COUNTRY AND KEEP YOUR GOT DAMN COMMUNISM IN TORONTO AND BC. I HOPE FRENCH CANADA JOINS CHINA AND PICKS A FIGHT WITH THE USA
CANADIAN BACON FOR REAL. Punk!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-12-27 at 4:05 PM UTCRIP John Candy :(
Brilliant SCTV member. Which TORONTO STOLE FROM CHICAGO
Go eat waffles or something. Maple Flag AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHA A Fucking Leaf? WTF -
2020-12-27 at 4:06 PM UTCYes I know John Candy was a Canuck. but they're an exception.
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2020-12-27 at 4:08 PM UTCAshes to ashes, dust to dust.
Lanny please ban his account so his ghost doesn't come back to haunt us. -
2020-12-27 at 4:10 PM UTC
Originally posted by rabbitweed Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
Lanny please ban his account so his ghost doesn't come back to haunt us.
Me or Living?
All Pedos (if serious and not trolling that weird shit) should be dropped in a hole in the arctic somewhere and flash frozen until there is a cure for their sickness.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-12-27 at 4:15 PM UTCHey crybaby,
It's not that bad.
You just don't know what you are doing and in your own words "waiting for something to happen".
Sucks you are in Hawaii or I'd just come help you in person.
There are ways to get your replacement documents paid for.
I am sorry you are having a tough time right now but think of it as "if I start working on a better life now then anything better than this will be awesome".
I might not be P Diddy but from where I cam from I do feel like a king.
Take things one day at a time.
Do you have a network of people around you that want you to do better?
People that will help you do better?
People that will answer the phone when they call? -
2020-12-27 at 4:21 PM UTC
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2020-12-27 at 4:24 PM UTCthe only thing worthwhile is more suffering, every moment that's unbearable says you've done this before & the correspondence of these moments will be only yours
your bitch mother can't take them away from you, she can only distract you while you make the getaway of a lifetime
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2020-12-27 at 4:28 PM UTCContact True Blue and set up an appointment. They'll give you a job for cash by the day. Temp work is hot right now.
https://www.trueblue.com/ -
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