2019-11-19 at 8:55 AM UTC
So I have been three days sober from the alcohol and it's pretty different.
It's odd going entire days in a singular state of mind, not augmented or waking up with a hangover.
It feels very clear and pure, just as God intended.
I wonder what I would do if I went the rest of my life sober, like what would I do with my time .... nothing is appealing anymore except hunting down jews and kill them.
Sophie and I are in talks about getting into game development together, honestly at this point in my life game development is the only thing that is going to keep me sane, otherwise I would get extremely bored and go outside and start shooting down former, and soon to be, kings and mexicans for sport.
I have lots of really amazing ideas, they won't jive with wage slaves and normies though, these will be games specifically made for hikikomori who have all the time in the world .... like I plan on creating a classic style RPG (think the original Final Fantasy games) that will take around 5,000 to 10,000 hours to complete.
When I get moved and my mom gets me an iMac I might make a youtube series on various interesting topics.
I need something to pass the time, there is no way I can continue this lifestyle if I'm 100% sober.
2019-11-19 at 8:58 AM UTC
You don't have to get fucked up when you drink just have a little bit like last night I did two shots
2019-11-19 at 9:31 AM UTC
That's an interesting justification but you shouldn't need a reason to convince yourself to drink more