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2020-01-27 at 4:47 AM UTC in TOTSEANS Thread
Originally posted by Speedy Parker Fuck Totse . Most of the information that was posted there was incomplete at best, and purposely misleading or dangerous in some cases. Most of you fuckwits that remember it fondly do so because at the time you were to young and stupid to realize that it was a pile of tossed together shit tossed together by mostly shit tossers who never managed to toss anything meaningful in the real world. That's most of you who still think it was so cool. Then there is SpectraL. Who knows why he still enshrines a dead website. As for me, well it was all about the Benjamin's baby.
This is partially true, but it gives me the impression you're a lot younger.
The thing about &Totse is that it's largely a relic of a "perfect storm" of phenomena that cannot be recaptured in the modern era. This is mainly due to the fact that technology has progressed to a point where it redefined society and displaced Jeff Hunter's original vision. You have to realize that, when &Totse was new, this was during a time when intelligent misfires who had a knack for unusual or dangerous knowledge were a pretty uncommon group of people. Basically anything electronic had no GUI, and operating any kind of computer system was still considered a pretty rare skill. Virtually nobody went to college because the average American could thrive on a high school education, so most citizens were only functionally literate. On the other hand, we were an odd bunch of people traditionally understood by the rest of the world as a weird but potentially dangerous, bookish bunch. At best, we were seen as normal people who hid our passions well because we realized that revealing an affinity for esoteric knowledge generally makes you appear untrustworthy or as if you're harboring some sinister motives. It's hard to believe it now, but books like "The Poor Man's James Bond" or military training manuals on counter-intelligence were actually genuinely hard to come by. There were really just entire areas of knowledge that you had to work extremely hard to obtain even a basic mastery of because people simply couldn't find resources.
When Totse showed up, you suddenly had an amalgam of this information all in one place. Not only that, you had something totally new -- a community. For the first time in many of our lives, we finally were communicating with people who shared our values. They weren't talking about the new Brady Bunch movie, who banged the cheerleader, or the baseball game. These guys were talking about things that made a difference. They were posting how to trick evolving telephone technology. They were able to anonymously criticize things about society that would otherwise get them ostracized from public spaces. Most importantly, we were sharing information. When I was growing up, books were rare. I remember reading some of my first Orwell novels because someone typed them up on &Totse, and I know many others had this same experience.
When they eventually added the web facing presence, the site initially restricted membership. The internet was still pretty fresh, and the ideas were still flowing. However, like everything else, 9/11 changed things. Law Enforcement upped their presence on the site. Eventually The Patriot Act was passed. People were distrustful of each other. Suddenly members weren't as quick to say how they really felt, because they were afraid it would follow them into real life. By roughly 2005, the show was pretty much over, and I think I know why. . .
When I was 14, I remember sitting in homeroom and having a bunch of my friends laugh hysterically at me because I met a girl over the internet. I eventually met her in real life, but the prospect of meeting someone online before you met them in person was completely unimaginable to the rest of the football team. A few years later, something eventually changed in our society. That is, there once was a divide between internet and real life. I think major part of of happened was that divide that eroded. It eventually was no longer a thing. I know this might be hard to believe, but there was a time when you'd come home, play games on a computer, surf porn, read things, had a really limited form of social media, go to a few forums especially dedicated to one thing, maybe learn something, watched a Flash cartoon, and then you shut it down to return to real life. In real life you had school, work, family, conflict, and responsibilities. It was around 2005 when the internet started to become real life. This is where &Totse was in it's death throes and was effectively in the state as you described it. People were worried about managing their reputations and were posting things to jockey for recognition rather than for a love of knowledge or passion in a subject matter. This is because, remember, now the internet is real life. Who needs friends at school when you have the anonymous praise of hundreds of strangers? This meant information was poorly researched. Quality became lousy. Nobody held anyone accountable over it. In old &Totse, someone would have caught the mistakes. But this wasn't old &Totse. The community was laughing at a guy putting his penis a burrito. People were in spurious talking about how RobinHoody sent his penis to an underage girl. People were trying to get Pirate Hippie's AIM scree name. Nobody was there for the right reasons anymore. The internet became real life. But instead of real life looking more like the internet, the internet just became ugly like the rest of the world.
The nerds like me clung onto our cerebral notions for dear life. We tried to recreate the space, tried forming communities, tried to find things like it off line, and maybe even embellished it a little bit to try and convince ourselves we were part of something bigger. But really, it was no use. Eventually &Totse became a high school locker room -- poop jokes and all. And for how wise all of us nerds thought we were, it was about it get way worse.
You see, in 2005, any idiot could log onto the internet and do what they want. Now, every idiot was required to be on the internet. Eventually, this trend spiraled into what became the modern era. The internet wasn't even real life anymore. Now, the internet is more important than real life. The one refuge we had became an abstract representation of the worst parts of society. Forums became echo chambers. Unpopular opinions posted online now cost people their jobs or reputations. All of your internet activities are monitored and heavily scrutinized. Law enforcement regularly kicks in doors, destroys reputations, and asks questions later over benign activity. And now, you have an entire generation encounter the world through electronic abstractions that leave them completely unprepared for reality.
So now, when you hear people talking about &Totse, it's usually because there was a part of us that experienced something special there. It's hard to walk away from that into the monotony of the adulthood because for once, as pathetic as it maybe sounds, many of us finally had a place that we belonged to. Just maybe the huge pile of books in the corner of my house and tomes of handwritten notes on a highly specific discipline weren't weird, might actually be valued by somebody. Somebody might take what I learned, use it, and teach me something in response. Maybe we'll put it into action and change something. Maybe we can make the world a more free place for people to think, feel, and interact.
It's not elitist or romanticized, but I don't blame you for not believing me. You just had to have been there.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-27 at 4:28 AM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-27 at 2:42 AM UTC in List of BTC private keysThis post has been edited by a bot I made to preserve my privacy.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-26 at 4:40 AM UTC in I've started praying that my life will changeThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-26 at 2:41 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace I think my sobriety owl is broken
did you read the NA pdf? it helped a ton.
https://drive.google.com/folderview?id=1brmUcLC9De4D2t0GOlOdA1slnThjOhUH
after three weeks clean, i realized i might need a new brain. this one's full of spooky ghosts with insatiable demands -
2020-01-26 at 2 AM UTC in All the DH girls are fatone of my ex gf's chzboogers was a fatty and would skinny shame me all the time, one night she was making some biscuits in her underwear and I said something man you're a fat bitch like your bitch mom and she thru bisquik right into my eye.. another time she was picking me up from jail and I started berating her on how she got so much fatter in only a month and a half while i was gone and she started crying saying "I know I've gotten fatter it was the holidays!"
when I met her when she was 19, she was thick and had a big butt which im into but she just kept getting fatter and fatter and bitchier over the course of 8 years, but not to the level of hdl's slampig
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2020-01-25 at 11:01 PM UTC in Hey don't tell themThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-25 at 5:38 PM UTC in how to prove mailman is stealing my mailalright so first off this is a real thing not a meth fueled paranoid delusion. basically, my mailman is this sketchy dude who recognized me and would always say hi. i've known him for like a few years at least. i used to get a lot more priority mail and express sent to me and when that happened i would always be anxious waiting for it to arrive and he gave me his number once and said if you are waiting for something you can just call me and come get it if you need it quick.
for the past 1-2 years sometimes when i have something delivered usps, the tracking will show delivered around 5:30 pm (the time the mailmen get off work) but the package wont actually be in the mailbox until the next day. it was never that big of a deal i just figured he was a little lazy (although i do admit it set off a frenzy of paranoia in me initially). but a few weeks back i ordered a vaporizer and it said delivered and 2 days when by and it wasn't there so i called the post office to see if I could come grab it and the dude was just like "oh theres nothing i can do rn". as soon as i got off the phone i looked out front and the mailman was there delivering thee vaporizer (it was a different mailman than the usual one, which is not unusual since i'm assuming he doesn't work 7 days a week). then around 7 pm the normal mailman called me from his personal phone. i was super stoned and anxious so i just didn't pick up but he called 3 times. no voicemail.
after that i just didn't get any mail at all for 11 or 12 days which is pretty unusual, then one day i got one piece of junk mail that was addressed to someone with a different name, with the same apartment complex address as mine but no apartment number, which was odd since the mailman knows my name and i never get mail that isn't addressed to any apartment. also someone sent me a card that's like 2 weeks late now. there's also like 100 comments on social media from people who live around me about him and him doing shady shit. they say they've complained a shitload of times and nothing ever happens, that they receive packages where the tape has clearly been opened, one person even said that they got a piece of mail to their house addressed to the mailmans name.
i think he is probably just taking packages/cards that he thinks have small, valuable things in them (or cash), taking them home for a night, trying to figure out if he can figure out what is in each one either by opening them carefully or some other method, and randomly selects things to take. that part may be paranoia, idk.
but right now, i don't think i am getting mail, am not sure what to do about it and he seems kind of angry at me. maybe i will take an old iphone or something that has gps and have it mailed to myself somehow with some way that i can track it's location. idk what do you think?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-25 at 2:52 PM UTC in I've started praying that my life will changelol fox is very closed minded. you can tell he is by the way he goes about his argument against god. i highly even doubt he's read the bible, otherwise he wouldn't act foolish.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-25 at 6:54 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by Cheyes OH DUDE FUCK
Man, I know you just got sober for a long time and I'm so proud of that
Buuuuuuut I'm also kinda geeked someone other than me is doing krek tomorrow!
nobody appreciates it but me..
i think its awesome
but its also scary and expensive
i have a drug test coming up soon so Ill end up being a good boy one way or another
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2020-01-25 at 6:13 AM UTC in I'm tired of conflict
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2020-01-25 at 1:01 AM UTC in describe another user with a meme/stupid picThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-24 at 11:04 PM UTC in Everyone loves lego, right?Lol when I was like four years old my mom was a stay at home mom and had a lot of free time on her hands.. she built a huge Lego house and told me to go open the front door.. I went and did it and there was a little Lego man inside smiling at me..
I flipped out really bad and ran to the other room and watched the Flintstones
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2020-01-24 at 11:01 PM UTC in Everyone loves lego, right?
Lego is the best stuff ever. Its fun, lasts forever, can be used to build anything, and is nearly indestructible.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-24 at 9:50 PM UTC in describe another user with a meme/stupid pic
Originally posted by mmQ I wonder if your random two posts in a year are from a relapse or what the fuck. But I wonder. But you can't read this. Won't read this. Because you don't remember making it.
But I still wonder.
WhoooOoooOooooOoo. Who wrote the book of loooooooove?
:), :)
Well, the fact that a relapse may or may not have taken place a measly 2 times a year shouldn't even be categorized as a relapse.
I hate the word "Relapse" and what it implies.
"Relapse" tends insinuate leaving sobriety behind and bungee jumping towards an even lower rock bottom than before.
So stupid how people think if you use just once after being sober that it will just immediately evolve into habitual substance abuse. Just one time & you might as well quit your job before you're inevitably fired. This of course will eventually lead to you being homeless. Selling your body for drugs. The only positive going for you is that your next shot may end up being your last one. Finally releasing you from all the pain. And there you will lye dying, in a gutter with a needle in your arm and only one shoe on.
I mean, I don't wanna seem arrogant but the fact I have been just riding the crystal dragon a few times a year is pretty cool.
You are right about one thing though...
Originally posted by mmQ But you can't read this. Won't read this. Because you don't remember making it.
I definitely don't remember that post.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-24 at 4:17 PM UTC in DH please answer me this
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2020-01-24 at 3:48 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕Yeah I hear you. I grew up poor, I will never go back to that, imma die for mines
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2020-01-24 at 8:34 AM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕i think im going to be a private investigatorThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
