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2017-08-14 at 9:16 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSCasper, Hydro lost a lot of weight and is now around 150lbs at 5'8.
You're left as the obese person. -
2017-08-14 at 7:53 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSWe got some crazy ass niggas and bitches on this shit.
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2017-08-13 at 10:32 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSYou're a low quality person, your opinions don't matter.
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2017-08-13 at 6:37 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Lanny lol, yeah, that's definitely a plan that's going to work.
Of course it wouldn't work for you.
I've changed immensely over the past month!
For example: My sink is finally empty! I literally thing in there, holy shit, I don't know how long. It was long as fuck, like, I wouldn't be surprised if it was over a year. I remember having to put my hand in there recently and I was actually afraid that an unknown creepy creature may have spawned in there, flinching and yelping mildly when I my hand brushed against something.
Lanny, why are you so fucking presumptuous. You have limited information about other people, you need to improve your theory of mind and understand the complexity others can have, in their minds and external lives. You're just being incredibly small minded. -
2017-08-13 at 6:32 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery Lol. There are quite a few people in my area I know who are polyamorous. You might be able to get something like that going on, but I doubt you can date multiple girls while having them remain exclusive to you, let alone compete over you. Much more likely that they'll either be against it or expect polyamory on both ends of the relationship.
Dude, totally! I've considered the same thing.
I'm in the San Francisco fucking Bay Area! This place probably has one of the highest, if not the highest, concentration of polyamorous girls in the nation.
But, no, that isn't exactly what I want.
You know, in the past it was actually the standard for people to date someone new every week. It was because their parents didn't want to take the risk of things getting too serious (sex) before marriage and to become exposed to a wide variety of people in order to learn what they like, what they want in a partner. I completely agree with the latter. It's absurd how people remain in relationships for years and pass by countless people they could have explored. -
2017-08-13 at 12:04 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSHeh, I just had a funny thought about past experiences with women.
I’m very bashful and have noticed that on some occasions I’ve accidentally glanced at a woman walking contrary to me on the sidewalk or a path and my normally stern unbroken demeanor, which makes me appear intimidating and unapproachable, has softened into a coy type of smile, almost as if I’m somewhat amused.
Every time they’ve smiled in return, shown a positive reception, and usually spoken to me/or said something softly.
The same thing has happened just from looking around. When scanning an area I have a very intense unbroken glance. My gaze simply crossing a receptive girl has been enough for them to attempt to speak to me, or even change seats on the train, even if they were speaking to someone, and sit next to me.
It’s funny because if I wanted to attract an attractive girl I wouldn’t even have to try. So many men would kill for this ability, have such trouble with women and feel desperation, and I’ve rejected every single one by simply ignoring them. 27 years and I’ve never so much as held hands due to the philosophical system I continually developed in my mind, countless unconventional thoughts on existence, life, the human condition, and how to live; then actually putting them into action, continually recreating, redefining, aspects of myself.
Oh, autism.
I am going to get a vasectomy ASAP though and give dating multiple girls a try some time after school begins. Due to this being my first experience, I’m strongly against the conventional manner of being exclusive to one girl while dating. If I can convince them, explain that I want to try multiple women without partaking in sex in order to discover and identify what I like, it would be amazing if I actually managed to set a group of girls competing for me, possibly even leading to the ultimate dream of actually for forming a harem scenario! -
2017-08-12 at 11:28 PM UTC in Have you bean to hell?Fought against ego death once on a relatively high-ish dose of mushrooms. The single most hellish experience I’ve encountered. It was very different from what most would imagine when you describe a psychedelic experience of hell, it was a lack of all meaning, the blackest emptiness, and knowing that there was no escape, that existence would always be like this.
The other is the 3 year period after my severe mental breakdown and continual degradation. It was a living hell with little reprieve that never ended, years on end experiencing almost no happiness, positive emotion or meaningful events in general, constantly tormented by my mind, being unable to find satisfying answers and solutions to countless crucial questions and concepts, in complete isolation. -
2017-08-12 at 9:29 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 malice, do you know any adopted children? Most of the ones I met know what happened to their parents and if not they found out as they god older. its the foster home kids who dont get told anything and its not like he couldnt find out anyway.
Well, they shouldn't fucking tell them if they can't handle it! I blame the adoptive parents. Who the hell is dumb enough to think it's a good idea to their child their birth mother committed suicide? -
2017-08-12 at 9:28 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS“In our early youth we sit before the life that lies ahead of us like children sitting before the curtain in a theatre, in happy and tense anticipation of whatever is going to appear. Luckily we do not know what really will appear.” ― Arthur Schopenhauer
I had a great smoke session last night after something was making me feel off and dissociated. Decided to clear my system of potential offenders, and the depressive cycle coming to end must have helped as well.
Strain reviews from Purple Star MD:
Unfortunately it appears I became hypersensitive again after that break. I may need to use a milligram scale once again, or microspoons
OG Kush: That good mellow, relaxing, sedative high as usual. Quite comfortable.
-Do-Si-Dos: Surprisingly potent for $25 an 1/8th! I knew when I took out a bud and examined it, saw the structure and felt the stickiness, that this may surprise me. Practically made me feel more autistic in a way, with how withdrawn and lost in thought I felt. Very highly rated, with a good lineage.
https://www.leafly.com/indica/do-si-dos
Platinum Bubba Kush: Possibly the smoothest mellow and relaxing strain I've tried so far. No headspace issues or anxiety. The lineage is certainly in line with this.
https://www.leafly.com/indica/platinum-bubba-kush
Wedding Cake: A good all around high, but this is more ambiguous. It was hard to put my finger on the effects, just how to describe it. I'll have to try it some more.
https://www.leafly.com/hybrid/wedding-cake -
2017-08-12 at 9:17 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSOh, thank god, the two week depressive period may finally have ended. It began for no reason, beginning with strong irritability and anger throughout the entire day, which is a common way depression can be displayed in males, and continually became worse until thoughts of suicide came, although not to the point where I would actually do it, my entire mindset was depressive, and I would even begin to cry at night, tears going down my face for prolonged periods for no apparent reason. It was also unbroken, every single day I wasn't happy, where as I was hypomanic before.
I really hope that this is a random fluctuation after all, or at the very least that I don't spend far more time in depressive cycles.
I really want to buy some ketamine, but the damn darknet markets have been so fucked up, and probably will be for a while. We desperately need decentralization, such as OpenBazaar.
I haven't read enough to know how it's developed or what problems it may have, but it seems it's ready to use and the smart contract feature is pretty fascinating.
This year has demonstrated better than anything else why we absolutely need a good decentralized marketplace and a mass exodus to it, more awareness of them and their benefits.
Fortunately necessity, a final shock as great as this, is bound to lead to far more awareness, demand, and willingness for actual change, a break in apathy.
It's greatly unfortunate that it seems to be a universal feature of humanity to be apathetic about large scale systems/institutions that feel beyond their control, beyond their ability to make a real/significant change. People generally need a strong shock like this -
2017-08-12 at 9:09 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by NARCassist you think nobody is gonna sit him down when he asks why he hasn't got a mom, and tell him..,
i'm sorry son, but your mom was very mentally ill and committed suicide when you were very young'.
but what he will actually hear is…
'i'm sorry son, but your mom didn't give a shit about you enough to stay around and look after you, you obviously never meant anything to her and she obviously had no desire what so ever to want to see you grow up and see what you became with your life. she obviously had no concern pertaining to protecting you from any harm or dangers you may of faced during your childhood, or to seeing to it that you stayed on the right track and were looked after and had everything you needed. or had any interest in just being there for you on all the countless times during your life when you just needed advice, support or encouragement, or for those times when you just needed your mom, like just for a hug, or to show him he's loved like every child needs countless times while growing up and even as an adult. she simply gave no thought to you what so ever'.
and as time goes by, in his head that will turn into…
fucking bitch, just leaving me like this. i fucking hate her'.
i mean go ahead hydro, do it, you certainly won't regret it if you do. your son on the other hand will regret what you did every day of his fucked up, miserable little life.
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No one's going to fucking tell him that. They may not even know what happened to her due to confidentially, or they may just be told she passed away, which probably happens to a fair amount of adopted children.
Christ you guys are fucking presumptuous condescending cunts. -
2017-08-12 at 7:36 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSHaha, if PoC can't handle the stress from his mom, he's going to end up in a padded room for life living with Hydro.
Remember the hedgehog's dilemma: The closer people are the more they can hurt each other. Two high unstable autists that are particularly sensitive, unstable, and highly emotional is a recipe for something extreme being bound to happen eventually.
I hope we get a kidnapping and high speed chase televised live at one point. -
2017-08-12 at 7:29 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Just Fucking Pick A Username Already Hey guys! Discount Whore's wife here. I was trying to pick out a username and asked my husband for the fiftyth time what it should be and this is what he said so here I am :) Looking forward to meeting all of you
This feels awkward and weird for some reason, almost like the feeling you might get if one of your relatives happened to join the forum. -
2017-08-12 at 7:08 AM UTC in One time I masturbated on my own faceHey, I did that once too mash, but not in the shower. It seemed like it would be hot at the time, but after the semen hit my face and I rapidly went into the refractory period it wasn't that fun anymore.
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2017-08-11 at 11:09 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Lanny No one has denied that mental illness exists, I assume you don't deny hypochondria or malingering exists, so how exactly do you propose to discriminate between the two? I think what green plastic is saying is that internet quizzes and "I'm bipolar because I think I am!" is better evidence for the latter than the former. You're going to accuse me of misunderstanding you or underestimating the amount of OCD ceremony you've put into your carefully crafted armchair medical diagnoses but you're going to be wrong because, although you seem somehow entirely blind to it, your standards for evidence, especially around diseases you think you personally have, is absolute dogshit.
You can think particular people claiming to have diseases might have some secondary gain involved in exaggerating or fabricating them (like, say, if they found a significant part of their identity on having a particular disease) without denying the legitimacy of that disease in general. No amount of poorly drawn web comics changes that.
I absolutely refuse to respond to anything you say, which is exactly what I stated I would do earlier this week. -
2017-08-11 at 12:43 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by greenplastic People here are too quick to blame their problems on mental disorder. You all would rather call yourself autistic or bipolar or depressed when your real problem is that you're just not willing to put in the work to have a good life. Of course you're going to be depressed if you drink or take pills everyday, eat like shit, and don't exercise. That shit is just common sense.
I don't do any of that, and do exercise daily. It's unfortunate there's such a lack of awareness and proper understanding of mental illness, because views like this are common.
Some people have to put in enormous amounts of time and effort just to attempt to appear normal, to live stable independent lives.
Do you understand the neurological basis of genuine severe mental disorders? You have no idea what it's like to possess them or how severe they are for individuals.
Honestly, the idea that what you listed could adequately address our problems... You have no idea how incredibly foolish you seem to us when you say this. -
2017-08-11 at 12:26 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by CASPER
Originally posted by Piles of Crack You underestimate the severity of my mental illness.
Consider this an A+ thanks
Casper, did you know that I led to multiple people here being diagnosed with high functioning autism or Asperger's? Hydro and PoC actually have it. Assortative mating is a standard behavior among humanity, and the same is true for those with autism spectrum related dates. People who score high on autistic traits, or actually qualify for a diagnosis, tend to be attracted to similar people. I actually suspected they had feelings for each other and could make a good couple, or at least be deeply drawn to each other initially,
I'm not kidding.
https://niggasin.space/thread/11907
I think I made have written a succinct theory on why this is, unless I just 'wrote' it in my mind. It's fairly simple, largely to do with selection biases, the kind of people who are heavy users of and drawn to communities like this, the ones that would follow as refugees through multiple site closures, and still remain dependent on such a relatively shitty community, compared to what's available on the entire internet, the outside world, are regular posters. I specifically speculated, with a high degree of confidence, that HFAs and aspies would be largely overrepresented on this site, and I was right.
If you count all the regular posters and what percentage the ones that would qualify for a diagnosis are, it's manyfold higher than the general population. In fact, two out of three of your female members have already been confirmed as autists, with Kinkou formally diagnosed with Asperger's.
Well, ideally an extensive diagnosis would be by a good ASD specialist IRL. Unfortunately only a fraction are good, IMO. Their understanding is largely based on the clearest symptoms, deficits, therapies. Barely any genuine neurological understanding at all, few truly grasp it.
And most of the people I strongly suspected proved me right.
I wonder what this must be liked for a neurotypical, to find out that some of the people you've known since years ago are literally autistic. -
2017-08-10 at 10:17 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSRight now I really feel disturbed by the fact that I have lips. They look so out of place on the human face, in contrast with the rest of the skin.
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2017-08-10 at 9:17 PM UTC in Pulling ya girl's yoga pants down and fucking her while you finger her clit
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2017-08-10 at 11:37 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSOn the other hand, I definitely show signs of hypomania during the manic cycle. The up periods are definitely seeming past the normal range for humans in general. Fortunately it seems to last longer than the depressive cycle. Getting rid of the depressive could practically make it a gift.