Posts by Malice

1. 2015-10-18 at 2:14 PM UTC in When your high enough, you don't gotta actually listen to music...
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged
   I expected something like: "You become the music."
2. 2015-10-18 at 2:10 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   Unrelated, I learned that George Bush and Bill Clinton are actually close friends: https://www.google.com/search?q=george+bush+clinton+friends
   
   Pretty funny, if you told leftists about this and showed/linked them to this their reaction could be pretty amusing, they'd be so peeved.
   
   Also funny because of what it might say about the nature of (US) politics, what a complete joke it is.
3. 2015-10-18 at 2:08 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged

   This has a strange mirror symmetry with rutger hauer's death speech in blade runner.

   
   
   I wish I could have known what it was like to be a normal human being, to feel closeness to others and love like the rest of you. It's no exaggeration to say that the world has never felt right to me, even as a small child I always knew, always felt, that there was something missing and wrong, that this wasn't what life was supposed to feel like and how others felt. I remember being at a park, seeing the natural scenery and others play, but to me there was a certain coldness, a lack of warmth, of emotional coloring, a deadness to the world. It wasn't until later in life, within the past few years, when I learned and understood more and realized what it was: It was the human element.
   
   If you were to meet me IRL you would understand, many have said that I am unlike anyone they have met before, and that is not necessarily a good thing.
   
   Everything that I was will be lost to time, like tears...in rain.
4. 2015-10-18 at 12:02 AM UTC in Can't Upload Attachments or Embed Pictures
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   Lanny will be gone for a few more days and can't fix anything until then.
   
   But, would he really want to risk having child porn uploaded to the server?
5. 2015-10-17 at 9:35 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   Ha, Illinois is so fucked they aren't paying out lottery winnings: https://www.reddit.com/r/news/comments/3p3sqh/families_outraged_after_illinois_fails_to_pay_out/
   
   I remember some time I read about a type of yeast or bacteria in a woman's vaginal flora that produces GABA, that babies born via c-section may not receive it, contributing to poorer outcomes/problems associated with the procedure, and that I was interested in whether eating a woman out may improve symptoms in the autistic.
   
   Which was brought to mind by this: https://www.reddit.com/r/RandomActsOfMuffDive
   
   Would be funny if I made a post centered around that, while still self-aware of how it would be perceived if I didn't note my level of awareness. "Help cure my autism with your vaginal flora."
6. 2015-10-17 at 6:53 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   https://www.reddit.com/r/RandomActsOfBlowJob
   
   Someone should try to hookup with someone on there, for our amusement.
   
   Learned about it here: http://mic.com/articles/124581/why-MOON PERSONs-are-ditching-tinder-to-hook-up-on-reddit
7. 2015-10-17 at 12:45 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   What if there aren't any answers? Thinking about the nature of evolution, how we arose by chance, why would it just so happen to work out that there would be satisfying answers to the answers that really matter? Isn't it more likely that the truth would reflect the fundamental lack of meaning behind out existence?
   
   You've had decades more to figure things out than I had. What is there to figure out?
   
   

   Interesting. I've been debating whether or not to start a cycle but injections and going the whole route of getting illegal steroids is off putting but I may give this a try since its nice and easy.

   
   http://www.reddit.com/r/Steroidsourcetalk/
   
   Injections aren't really a big deal once you get the routine down, you honestly barely even feel them if you have good needles, 25 gauge works well for IM, even for thicker solutions, and learn the proper technique. This may sound weird, I was surprised to learn it myself, but it turns out that IM injections are so safe it's actually debatable whether cleaning the site for injection should be done at all. And I'm referring to policies by major medical organizations.
   
   This is a very good option, though, and I'd definitely recommend it for your first cycle.
8. 2015-10-17 at 9:48 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged
   I may not be capable of being happy, and even if I was, what does it amount to? The world will still be the same, it doesn't feel like it will ever be sufficient. You live one moment after the next and then you cease to exist and none of it will amount to anything. What use to memories, the sense of a rich/full life have? Mere shadows of what you once felt, experienced, and if you are unhappy, suffering, they will not bring you salvation.
   
   What can you do, when you don't like and don't want to like, be a part of or have anything to do with, the world you were born into through no choice of your own, the biological vessel you're trapped in, the mind you experience the world through? Don't want this, don't want that, other people are simply a different type of hell, but the absence of them is entirely at odds with millions of years of evolution and causes you to implode under the weight of your own existence.
   
   I really do view myself as being terminally ill.
   
   Unrelated, RAD-140, a SARM (selective androgen receptor modulator) I mentioned before, the only one that may currently be worth using. with pro-cognitive/neruoprotectant effects, along with protecting the prostate from the effects of testosterone, and being more anabolic than standard testosterone, is avaialble for only $55 a gram from nyles7, a reputable nootropics vendor on eBay: http://www.ebay.com/itm/1-Gram-RAD-1...4AAOSw9N1Vty8t
   That's about a 3 month supply at 10mg a day.
   
   Could provide therapeutic effects on mood if your testosterone levels are low, or estrogen is too high. This is surprisingly common and there are many things that have a strong negative effect, diabetes, excess body fat (obesity), insufficient sun exposure of sufficient intensity (Recommended daily amounts of vitamins and minerals don't mean what the vast majority assume they do and are often far too low or from very sub-optimal sources. Dietary vitamin D3 from milk won't come close to being enough, at least 5K IU with a fatty meal is needed.) and regular opioid use are the most common and relevant factors to most users here.
   God I hate WYSIWYG editors. Damn, looks like it's pretty suppressive, though: https://www.reddit.com/r/PEDs/commen...run_bloodwork/
   
   https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/..._my_cognition/
   
   You'd need to run PCT (post cycle therapy), which is pretty easy and affordable: www.blueskypeptide.com
   
   Still a safer and more interesting option than standard steroids, more readily available with a certificate of authenticity providing data on purity, along with being more convenient as it can be used orally (some steroids can as well, but there are serious issues with liver toxicity, along with lower bioavailability).
   
9. 2015-10-16 at 1:44 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged
   Try putting a large clear plastic bag over your head, one large enough to not feel stifling, although if you have issues with claustrophobia any bag may feel this way, then secure it by simply twisting the open end until it's snug against your neck. It's comforting in a way, really feels like it would be the best way to go out. I thought, "If you go to sleep you will never awaken. Are you okay with that?" and I wasn't , but only because I felt I hadn't made my peace with death, that some things needed to be settled before that, or that I'd at least need to dwell on it and think about whatever's left to be thought.
10. 2015-10-16 at 9:19 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    https://www.reddit.com/r/news/comments/3outj3/state_comptroller_munger_illinois_is_out_of_money/
    State Comptroller Munger: 'Illinois Is Out of Money Now'
    
    

    Munger says she is having to choose from a number of very bad options to try to make payments, and that even those options are decreasing. She used the following comparison to highlight just how bad the state's cash shortage is: Imagine that you have $7,000 in bills on your kitchen table and only $142 on hand. That is the ratio that Illinois faces at the moment.
    Munger says the unpaid bills at her office are approaching $7 billion and a $560 million pension payment due in November will have to be delayed, with the December payment also questionable at the moment.

    
    Good fucking riddance.These people will never learn their lesson, statetheism is the new faith. x/posts from r/ancap:
    
    

    Reminds me of this:
    http://econlog.econlib.org/archives/2013/06/californias_pho.html
    http://www.pewtrusts.org/en/research-and-analysis/fact-sheets/2012/06/18/widening-gap-update-california
    I'm going to love it when this hits them like a train out of nowhere, particularly after leftists used CA as a model for the success of leftist policy.

    
    

    But deficits don't matter and spending grows the economy, giving us more money. How could they even think of hoarding money when so many people are needy. In fact, we should be spending even more, we still need trillions for infrastructure, free college for everyone for life, free healthcare for everyone for life, expand social security and increase payments, high speed internet for everyone, free/subsidized if you can't afford it (can't live without it in this day and age), free childcare, free cell service with data plan if you can't afford it, free housing if you can't afford it, free food, basic income.
    
    Why don't they just tax the rich 90%? That would solve everything overnight.
    
    Those right-wingers talking about ratchet effect with hardly anything ever cut, surpluses simply spent on things that add to liabilities even more, and entitlement mentalities are just crazy shills for corporations who hate the poor.

    
    They aren't going to eat the rich, they'll eat each other. The niggers will go for the nearest and easiest victims, cowardly weak and defenseless liberals in the cities and surrounding suburbs, the bobos (bohemian bourgeois).
11. 2015-10-16 at 8:05 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    When you're so overwhelmed with your problems and the problems of the world, of life and existence/reality, all alone with no one to help of speak to, if you could even convey the things that really mattered to you and be understood.
    
    It really makes suicide appealing, doesn't it?
    
    I really don't want to live, I want to commit suicide, but I'm also afraid of the finality of death, even though I believe our perceptions of ourselves are likely illusory. I've read that psychedelics have been very effecting for people in the end of life stage, helping them achieve closure, to come to terms with death and accept it. At the very least maybe they'll allow me to overcome my fear of death, like many non-terminal people report as well, and I'll be able to go in peace. The idea of taking a large dose of benzos so I'll be calm and won't even care, maybe an opiate if I react well to it, and strapping myself into an exit bag feels very appealing.
12. 2015-10-15 at 4:46 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    I am an imitation human being, and every day I lose more of myself and become more unreal.
13. 2015-10-15 at 4:44 PM UTC in So this is what I did today.
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Some people are genuinely asexual or close to it: http://www.gnxp.com/blog/2007/04/intercourse-and-intelligence.php
14. 2015-10-15 at 9:28 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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    I also addicted him to T-PAIN while I was working there (one day he had a terrible migraine and noone had any tylenol/aspirin so I gave him a dose and the next day he was upmy ass about buying some).

    
    Feels kind of nice to have your influence spread throughout the world in a way. Like black strands of mycellium infecting people and eating them away, strengthening them, or giving them a little bit of joy and improvement in life for a time; all feeding toward the ego that's dying bit by bit along with everybody else.
    
    

    we are standing outside he grabs my ass, holds me tigght and tries to kiss me. He knew my husbadn left that day, now hes trying to get in my pants. Im kinda scared of the guy now, I got really bad vibes hes going to expect more if I keep asking him for help. Hes like my dads age and has two kids around my age. He started telling me about the porn he likes and that he was into younggirls (17ish) and thats why his daughter doesnt talk to him.

    
    Yeah, hopefully you're smart enough to know that this is definitely where you cut things off. The little bit of help isn't worth the problems it's going to lead to. It's such a cliche scenario, shame there are so few men among the animals.
    
    Also,
    
    

    How big is your house? Couldn't you rent out rooms at least to generate some income?

15. 2015-10-14 at 9:55 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Go to hell you decrepit old man.
16. 2015-10-14 at 6:41 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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    Oh yeah, and it's totally libertarian spam that's the problem. Ron Paul made Reddit unreadable back in '08.
17. 2015-10-14 at 3:05 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    If you want to contact ghosts, take psychedelics in the place that's being haunted.
    
    I didn't follow up on the Oregon shooting after it happened, but came across this:
    
    

    And there’s further confirmation that Chris Harper-Mercer had Asperger’s Syndrome (or that at least his mother thought he had that):
    
    [Chris’ mother] apparently contributed to online forums dealing with health issues. In one exchange, a writer who appears to be Ms. Harper offered assistance to the mother of a child with Asperger’s syndrome, saying, “I’m a nurse and also have an Aspergers kid.”
    
    The article also says he wore the same outfit every day (aspies like routine) and that he would spend hours talking about guns if someone was willing to listen (aspies will talk endlessly about their special interests).

    
    I wonder what the over representation rate of aspies among spree killers/school shooters is up to know. Really giving us a bad image, which may be warranted. Extreme social isolation, alienation, and ostracism, the "extreme male brain" cognitive/psychological profile. I suppose it's somewhat fitting, but severe issues with depression, anergia/lethargy, and anxiety should offset it to some extent. Then again there's the aspect of aspie obsession, which, if driven to the breaking point, could propel them towards this kind of act, make them much more effective and likely to go through with it.
18. 2015-10-14 at 2:47 PM UTC in Rage Quit
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    You cannot stop the neoliberal revolution, Lanny: http://www.nytimes.com/2015/10/14/us...g-squeeze.html
    
    

    Mr. Kloehn says that cracking down on the boxes is misguided. If the box homes were banned, “would they be in an apartment?” he asked of the dwellers. “Would they be in a condo? Or would they be nowhere?”

    
    Goddamn governments and the filthy government lovers.
    
    http://halfsigma.typepad.com/half_si...career_in.html
    
    Soon the tech bubble will pop, you will become obsolete, and then you'll be forced to life with the rest of us in our dystopian society! Muahahahaha!
19. 2015-10-14 at 2:27 PM UTC in So this is what I did today.
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged

    If you don't want to be intimate with girls you're probably gay.

    
    
    Asexual. Not liking girls doesn't mean you like men.
20. 2015-10-14 at 1:12 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged

    On an unrelated note, you mentioned the idea of personal identity, or specifically the denial of an identity relation across time. I'm not sure if you've thought through the implications of that position (the SEP article on personal identity is fascinating) but one interesting aspect is that you, in each moment, are an agent who has been placed in a position by an entity with only a marginal relationship to you. Every time you go to the grocery store or find yourself in literally any situation you're like a soldier sent to war by a general or an inmate put in prison, you've never chosen to be where you are and living under the circumstances you are. It brings up an interesting question though, which is whether or not you trust the person who put you where you are. Like every bad thing that's happened to you was caused by the same group of people (you) that put you here now. And some decisions are really far reaching, like I'm still living out a plan formed and executed by a child, as are most people (ala "I want to be a <X> when I grow up"). It's interesting to think about, like every time you do something well it's because someone else handed you the tools to do that, and every time you fail it's because you were sent on the equivalent of a suicide mission.

    
    "You are the most self-destructive person I have ever met." - My highschool principle.
    
    Throughout time and space I must have hated myself on an immense level, or wanted to be so profoundly alone that I would never hurt anyone or be hurt again.