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2019-05-02 at 12:37 PM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hours
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2019-05-02 at 9:09 AM UTC in 17 & homeless(But seriously, if you don't want to remain homeless you're going to have to abuse the shit out of charity. Don't feel like you're better than that or above it, but also NEVER feel like what you can get from that is good enough. You can spite your parents just by being "okay", and you can crush them by being successful despite your homelessness. You're here, so I can almost guarantee you'll be fine. But don't get complacent. Contentedness is a recipe for a lifetime of homelessness. Blagh. I hope you're okay. PM me or something if you want, although I can't make any promises for how helpful I'll be.)
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2019-05-02 at 8:57 AM UTC in 17 & homelessWhile I'm hesitant to believe a 17 year old is actually present in this washed out shithole, my advice: make way to your nearest major city. Seek out a homeless shelter. There - if you're lucky - should be youth shelters centered around people your age (16-24, that type of thing).
Congrats - now you've got a stable base.
Once that's out of the way, you're free to seek employment. In your downtime don't feel bad about panhandling. Find some cardboard scraps and a marker. Write something on the cardboard. Sit around in a relatively crowded area and get money while you wait for your RESUMES and APPLICATIONS to bear fruit. My sign used to be "life lacks direction, need money for a compass" with a compass-rose drawn beneath. Also saw shit like "Why lie? Need money for weed." and those guys would straight up get nugs of kush tossed in their hats, but that might just be 'cause I'm in Canada.
Being homeless isn't that bad as long as you leverage charity/social assistance programs and aren't crazy or dead-set on remaining homeless. If you can't find a shelter, look for 24 hour internet cafes or porn booth rentals, where you can usually catch a few hours of shut-eye for like $10. -
2019-05-02 at 8:42 AM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hoursI used to have a good time. I dunno what changed. Maybe smoking meth + weed ruined it? I sorta blame that. But yeah. I haven't been able to take a single hit without having like 45 minutes to spare (to wear down the anxiety) since then. I can smoke a bowl and feel good after an hour or so, but I just feel like a total retard for that first hour and it makes me feel like shit and is not conducive to social situations.
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2019-05-02 at 8:39 AM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hours
Originally posted by CASPER Damn that does look good. 14 bucks a G though? Fuuuuck. I assumed it would be cheaper in canada.
And with the weed, even if its THC weed, dont feel like you have to "smoke normally". At my age, if someone wants to smoke with me and then give me shit bc i only take a hit or two, i could give a fuck less. Now that you dont have any balls, you dont need to feel bad about taking bitch hits. Use that to your advantage.
They didnt let you take your sack home with you in a jar?
tbf tho, $14 Canadian is like $10 American. That said it's still RETARDED expensive, especially when you add shipping (there are no storefronts near me).
But yeah, I get that there's nothing wrong with "not smoking normally", I'm just a huge pussy. Like one hit of normal weed will usually ruin my day. I'm a baby. I wish it was different, but yeah I can't even risk a single hit of your average pothead's weed without forfeiting like an hour to pure anxiety. Shit's uber lame, since my bf can smoke like 2g a day and actually feel like his life is improved. blagh :/ -
2019-05-02 at 8:09 AM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hours
Originally posted by CASPER Yeah im the same way. When i have nothing to do i fall asleep. When i have anything i need to get to, its a complete battle.
Just check up or procedure stuff?
Def try some of the CBD rich strains. Im the same way n get anxiety really easily, but the strains i mentioned before aree perfect. If i smoke enough, i still get high but the CBD doesnt let the THC cause anxiety. The ACDC i bought the ounce of maxes out at 6% THC.
As per… Juicebox (?" 's suggestion, i ordered some CBD weed from Tweedle farms. Supposed to have like .12% THC, so should be even better for me. I can vape that to my hearts content and just add a tiny pinch of strong cali bud…would be perrrrrfect for me. SHould try that shit.
Yeee I ordered an eighth of this stuff:
https://ocs.ca/products/north-star-cbd-alta-vie
And when scron ordered I pulled some coupon shit so we got a g of hash and an ounce for like $90, and I was thinking I'd just experiment with that to find the perfect ratio of CBD weed to hash/"real weed", but his arrived so much sooner so it's not an option tonight sadly lol. Ah well.
Just a check-up really, post-surgery follow up 'cause I had my nuts snipped a month ago. Just having anything to do fucks up everything for the 24 hours preceding it. It's silly. -
2019-05-02 at 8:02 AM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hours
Originally posted by Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country Because you're a NEET and have no reason to have a routine, lol.
Or am I a NEET because I can't have a routine due to retarded sleep shit? 'cause damn even when I had a reason to sleep at regular times I couldn't. Fuck.
I mean definitely being a NEET doesn't help but this shit is stupid. -
2019-05-02 at 7:54 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-05-02 at 7:52 AM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hours
Originally posted by Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country If it's legal where you are it should be very cheap. It's very strong though, and will leave you sleepy for 12 hours or so.
Camomile tea helps calm me down too, much milder.
Sounds like a good solution for insomnia at least. I can safely say that I - thankfully - don't suffer from that particular affliction. I sleep a lot, it's just never at the times it needs to be. I'll check it out though because damn I'd rather wake up at a normal time and be a bit groggy for a few hours than sleep at retarded times and never be able to get on track and sleep when I need to. Blagh.
I guess the real question is why I can never sleep when I need to be somewhere. Is this a common thing? Like I feel like it is: if you have a 9-5, getting to bed at a decent time on a sunday can be an issue. It's just that every day for me, except I have no daily responsibilities so it only applies to doctor shit. Kill me. -
2019-05-02 at 7:38 AM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hours
Originally posted by Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country I find valerian root gets me asleep every time. Booze is risky, sometimes it works, sometimes I refill and lose control and just go on a long drunken internetting bender.
Any time I hear about valerian root I just think of Fight Club because it's what the doctor recommends at the beginning of the movie, like that's actually gonna solve anything. I dunno if it'd help. I should probably try it at least. I know melatonin doesn't do shit for me at least.
The worst part is I ordered some CBD weed a couple days ago hoping it'd help me in this exact situation. I ordered from the legal provincial supplier here, but it hasn't showed up yet - meanwhile, the ounce scron ordered from an illegal MOM operation showed up within 24 hours smh. But I can't smoke that because I'll have a panic attack haha. -
2019-05-02 at 7:32 AM UTC in adhdThis is why the good lord invented Adderall.
Seriously though I wish I could even get 15 unmedicated seconds of work done. I have chronic apathy. I'd kill for just a burst of inspiration/passion, but I wouldn't have the inspiration/passion to kill in the first place so I guess that's kind of moot. -
2019-05-02 at 7:29 AM UTC in I have an appointment in 5 hoursAnd I'm sitting here doing shots of tequila like a retard. I'm not even remotely tired. I started drinking because I thought maybe it'd help me get a couple hour of sleep but I can already tell I'm going to be up until my appointment.
Why the fuck can I never sleep when I have somewhere to be? It's like my body's natural defense mechanism against being a responsible adult.
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2019-05-02 at 7:19 AM UTC in White people are dumb and ugly trash
Originally posted by Phantasmagoria How could you have disdain for my taste in music when objectively I have the best taste in music of any person on the planet and I can prove it
Because you're kinda creepy and my (mis/pre)conception of harsh noise was basically "loud static and discordant screaming" and even though it kind of is exactly that, it's not exactly that. And I mean I already liked industrial and I can sort of hear the evolution from that to the stuff I was listening to.
Originally posted by Phantasmagoria as for noise check out these albums and then kill yourself
Strom.ec - Dogs of Total Order
Propergol - Program Vengeance
Atrax Morgue - In Search of Death
Merzbow - Amlux
Contagious Orgasm + Government beta - Heartstrings
Prurient - And Still, Wanting
Government beta - Sporadic Spectra
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2019-05-02 at 6:20 AM UTC in An open letter to Misguided RussianPlease don't kill me.
I think you're pretty cool and want to tinker around with your gun collection/take it to the range, not get shot by it.
Thanks. -
2019-05-02 at 6:17 AM UTC in There's no such thing as race and all human populations are on average dumb, ugly trash
Originally posted by whoami Change my view
Why? You're basically correct. Anyone who would argue otherwise is basically just saying that some human phenotypes correspond to being shittier on average. But if we're being reasonable... every group is pretty retarded, and it's like saying one legally blind guy should lead another because he can see 1.1 inches in front of his face rather than .9 inches. -
2019-05-02 at 6:14 AM UTC in Angst of Post-Industrial Man under Late Capitalism
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2019-05-02 at 6:11 AM UTC in White people are dumb and ugly trash
Originally posted by Phantasmagoria There is actually a very strong noise and industrial scene in NYC so it would be the prime place for seeking out noise concerts
I ask this with all sincerity: any good noise shit to check out? I started listening to some to justify my disdain for your taste in music and actually kind of like it.
(Disclaimer: I've been playing VTMB lately and it is probably impacting my tastes.) -
2019-05-02 at 6:06 AM UTC in An open letter to blacks, jedis, spics and other assorted subhuman trash.t. hapa
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2019-05-02 at 6:05 AM UTC in White people are dumb and ugly trash
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2019-05-02 at 4:28 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
