2018-06-26 at 7:17 PM UTC
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Dfg
Tuskegee Airman
[compulsively riposte the emigrant]
My wife and I split up in 2012/2013. She had a daughter from a previous relationship when I met her and that girl became my step daughter until the divorce.
After the divorce my ex continued to use drugs and I got clean in March 2013.
Couple years later, my former step daughter gets into major trouble / heroin addiction and gets taken from my ex wife by Child protective services for severe neglect (age 16) That’s when I got full custody of our 13mo boy and 7yo girl. My step daughter didn’t like group homes at all and asked to come live with me and her half siblings so I said yes. This was feb / March of 2016.
Fast forward and things are moving along, and November rolls around and my mother suddenly faints at the school she teaches at overseas and it turns out that it is brain cancer and it’s really really bad. 5cm tumors. Plural. In the brain. That was thanksgiving day 2016. 30 days later my stepdaughter goes missing and had relapsed on heroin and the first clue to her whereabouts was pictures of her on backpage being sold as an underaged sex worker. The fbi got involved as it’s super illegal to post naked / sell women under the age of 18 online. They have a exploited children task force. My profession is cyber security and online forensics as well as being a former Marine so for three weeks I tracked everything down that I could and that lead me to finding her at a shady house at 1am just north of the downtown area of a major US city. A Top 10 US city.
The cops didn’t believe the “crazy” father right away but when they raided the house 2 hours later they found her and took her to the hospital. Long stint in rehab and she’s been doing a lot better.
After I found her, and after those three weeks were done, m ex-mother in law came to stay with me and my younger kids and I barely left my bed for a month. It took me months to cry. I started havin nightmares about random motels and watching through the eyes of other men, finding and paying and sleeping with my own kid. But it’s not me, I’m stuck having to watch and when I wake up and fall back asleep the dream would continue.
I lost my job. Couldn’t keep things together and in August of last year I attempted suicide when I had to face the reality that I couldn’t take care of my children anymore. They left with cps under a voluntary order as they call it. Much better that I did that than have them taken. I went to the VA hospital and was admitted to the psych ward for a week.
It’s been a rough couple years Recovering drug addict Single dad of really young kids Foster / step daughter gets sold into prostitution when she didn’t have the money to pay her dealer back.
It’s been almost 11 months since the suicide attempt and even telling people the story seems to mess up their worldview and catches people off guard completely. I barely go out anymore and was able to get my kids out of foster care after being gone for three months. I have a job that I love but am suddenly noticing that my short term and medium to long term memory is in shambles. I’ve been in fight or flight / mission mode for multiple years now and I’m not sure how to move forward. 35yo single male, full time employed, no family anywhere nearby and I cry randomly or intermittently, and feel like I’m just barely hanging on. No real end in sight and I would really love for someone to tell me how to be happy again.
Taken from Reddit, not me.
Forgot to put in the link. Basically MALICE, you're not the only one dealing with issues. You can make it work.
2018-06-26 at 1:20 PM UTC
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Dfg
Tuskegee Airman
[compulsively riposte the emigrant]
Read his posts in the suicide etc website. I am neutral on this. So, kill or not kill. I don't think I can do much.
Dfg
Tuskegee Airman
[compulsively riposte the emigrant]
The child's temperature...
or about 15 minutes...
Dfg
Tuskegee Airman
[compulsively riposte the emigrant]
Try Open Signals App on Android, I use it when I have to troubleshoot connectivity issues. It helps me find decent cell towers and it's just matter of moving my phone near to it to get a handshake. It works most of the time.
2018-06-21 at 6:21 PM UTC
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10 things I want to tell you
Dfg
Tuskegee Airman
[compulsively riposte the emigrant]
Not mine, credit goes to a random stranger on the internet.
Thank you for letting me go. I wasn't strong enough to do it for myself, but I'm strong by myself.
I hope you love someone the way I wanted you to love me
I learned a lot about myself in 3 year, I learned more the month that you were away.
Everything you told me I wasn't capable of doing, is everything I am doing.
I wasn't unhappy with my life, I was unhappy with our life.
I hope you never felt as alone as I did when I sat next to you on the couch.
I have a whole life to love, I'm starting by loving myself.
I hope you learn how to be kind.
I wish us the best, because I know we aren't bad people, we were just bad people to each other.
10.) This wasn't for you, this was for me.
Dfg
Tuskegee Airman
[compulsively riposte the emigrant]
Username: Dfg
Timezone/Country: GMT +8 / Philippines
How often you're able to chat: Rarely, busy with IRL stuff.
Would you prioritize time with Enter over all your other e-friends? (Y/N): Sadly no.
What do you think of women?: Good for fucking, can do things if trained properly, AWALT applies.
What do you think of Enter?: Insecure, needs a kick in the butt, has potential to be something better.
If Enter messaged me crying about how much women hate him and how he'll never get a girlfriend, I would: Link him to a support group or tell him to focus on earning money, bitches will come.
Dfg
Tuskegee Airman
[compulsively riposte the emigrant]
Tinder?
EDIT:
WeChat
KokaoTalk
kik
Dating websites, Okcupid works as well
