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  1. #41
    mmQ Lisa Turtle
    Sometimes stimulants make me say and think things that I (still obviously have harbored) but wouldnt otherwise think. Does it make them wrong? What does it mean?
  2. #42
    Obbe Alan What? [annoy my right-angled speediness]
    Originally posted by BummyMofo Stick with weed and the hallucigenic shit, those stims and opiates and benzos and shit you shouldn't fuck with imo

    All I've ever done.
  3. #43
    Obbe Alan What? [annoy my right-angled speediness]
    Originally posted by mmQ Sometimes stimulants make me say and think things that I (still obviously have harbored) but wouldnt otherwise think. Does it make them wrong? What does it mean?

    Are they really "your" thoughts if you didn't author them?
  4. #44
    -SpectraL coward [the spuriously bluish-lilac bushman]
    Originally posted by Obbe Are they really "your" thoughts if you didn't author them?

    When you are super high, the bad aliens, the demons, if you will, can channel through you quite easily. So it's not just you anymore. There are other life frequencies now open to you. The demons can merge frequencies at that heightened state and there could one, three, ten, as many as thousands of them right inside your frequency. It's a hack, but you allow it. You leave the door open, and then they come in. Just like a vampire. You have to let the vampire in first, or he can't come in, even through an open window or door.
  5. #45
    Octavian motherfucker
    Originally posted by -SpectraL When you are super high, the bad aliens, the demons, if you will, can channel through you quite easily. So it's not just you anymore. There are other life frequencies now open to you. The demons can merge frequencies at that heightened state and there could one, three, ten, as many as thousands of them right inside your frequency. It's a hack, but you allow it. You leave the door open, and then they come in. Just like a vampire. You have to let the vampire in first, or he can't come in, even through an open window or door.

    This is what Nonces think.
  6. #46
    mmQ Lisa Turtle
    Originally posted by Obbe Are they really "your" thoughts if you didn't author them?

    Well yeah. I did author them. They're just inspired by different things at different times. Unless you consider YOU to be the author of this post since I wouldnt have made it or thought it if not for your prompt.
  7. #47
    -SpectraL coward [the spuriously bluish-lilac bushman]
    Remember that all of reality, including you, is really just frequency waves. When your mind is existing on the higher frequencies, like when you are drugged out or near death or even asleep, other life frequencies can then "find" you, and that draws them to you, and then they can plug in. It's a form of ultra-science. The government is just finding out about these quantum capabilities, and are carrying out top secret experiments on the unsuspecting populations.
  8. #48
    Octavian motherfucker
    Originally posted by -SpectraL Remember that all of reality, including you, is really just frequency waves. When your mind is existing on the higher frequencies, like when you are drugged out or near death or even asleep, other life frequencies can then "find" you, and that draws them to you, and then they can plug in. It's a form of ultra-science. The government is just finding out about these quantum capabilities, and are carrying out top secret experiments on the unsuspecting populations.

    Nonce talk.
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    cigreting Dark Matter
    wats an mum
  11. #51
    Octavian motherfucker
    Originally posted by cigreting wats an mum

    Ya nan
  12. #52
    cigreting Dark Matter
    Originally posted by Octavian Ya nan

    wats ann nan
  13. #53
    Naan is great for mopping up curry sauce after a night on the bevvy.
  14. #54
    Obbe Alan What? [annoy my right-angled speediness]
    Originally posted by mmQ Well yeah. I did author them. They're just inspired by different things at different times. Unless you consider YOU to be the author of this post since I wouldnt have made it or thought it if not for your prompt.

    I don't think anyone authors the thoughts that they think. Nobody is responsible. Thoughts rise up out of the unconscious, sort of like how life rose up out of the mud.
  15. #55
    AngryIVer African Astronaut [my jade controlled morrigan]
    Originally posted by filtration Before I try and explain what is happening in my brain, please don't judge me, you will see some bad things and some good things.

    So, I grew up in a shitty household. I saw my mum beat my dad and my dad beat my mum. They ended up breaking up around the time I was 13. I stayed living with my mum. Things were alright for a while, but she would start emotionally messing with me, she would pretend to have strokes, she would pin me down and hit me, she would threaten to kill herself. I hated it so I would spend most of the time out of the house at my friends, or on the street just walking around to stay out of the house

    After all that I ended up living with my grandmother. This was a breathe of fresh air, a loving, beautiful woman. While living at my grandmothers, I ended up staying in the house more and more, I would be playing video games and browsing the internet. At first I felt alive, and like the world actually meant something, but one day it all went 'odd', like I wasn't me no more. My emotions left me, I barely felt many emotions.

    Over the course of 10 years, it great more and more, I would start saying the most inappropriate things from Racist things, murder things, terrorist things, peadophillia things. When I know deep down I DO NOT agree with any of that stuff, but I can't control myself from saying it. As of late my memory has been getting worse and worse, to the point I forget things as soon as someone tells me, I don't know if I just don't process it well, or it leaves as soon as a process it. I find people need to explain things like they would to a child for me to even understand and process the information, And my jokes are getting extremely dark where nothing I say shocks me. I know deep down I am altruistic, but I still say and do stupid things that I can't control.

    I tend to get scared forming bonds with people in case they leave me or abandon me, so I end up pushing them away before that can happen. As of late (this year) I've been acting different than how I did, like for a week I can think when I die the universe will end or that everyone is trying to poison me to the next week looking back wondering why I was like that.

    I had a nice girlfriend but I was scared she was going to leave so I always thought she was cheating so I tried to push her away before I got in the relationship longer

    I know I sound batshit crazy but I just wanted to get it off my chest.

    KYS faggot
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