2018-10-23 at 5:13 AM UTC
Zanick
motherfucker
[my p.a. supernal goa]
I remember about five or six years ago, Ethan was a mod of Religion & Spirituality and he posted that once every couple of weeks, he'd get very stoned and make himself cry. I couldn't remember the last time I had cried at the time, but the way he described it sounded cathartic and I wanted that.
It didn't take me long to get the technique down: now I usually guide myself through a series of dreadful and brutally honest feelings until I'm there and can't hold it back. It gets easier every time, although maybe that's because I'm fucking up more than I used to.
Just minutes ago I returned from an especially deep sob and I feel eager to make further mistakes.
2018-10-23 at 5:18 AM UTC
I cry pretty often. I full-on weep every couple of weeks, and I have little cries or get teary-eyed like once a day or so tho.
2018-10-23 at 6:11 AM UTC
I have too much ptsd to feel real emotion anymore
2018-10-23 at 2:01 PM UTC
tee hee hee
Naturally Camouflaged
[slangily complete this slumberer]
It's very cleansing, figuratively and literally.
2018-10-23 at 6:14 PM UTC
when I was a wee lad I use to cry all the time over everything, but now I am strengthened and hardened steel.