2018-03-04 at 3:24 AM UTC
I can't endure it, its too "icky", I can't convey the point as well with just writing but imagine if you woke up in the middle of open heart surgery, you felt no pain at all or anything, but you saw your chest and heart all cut open and shit... that would be so horrically terriblly "icky"' you know? I couldn't go in living after having that done...
Even when I think too much about the fact that I'm made up of a bunch of organs and shit, all the types of injuries and impale,ents and shit that coukd happen, Its too much and pray to make the thought stop
2018-03-04 at 3:26 AM UTC
I wish I could watch surgery being done on me. That way I can think "oh, that's what that lump was" or "oh,that's why poking that spot hurts"
And I could imagine how fascinated I'd be, especially with the ketamine/dilaudid
2018-03-04 at 3:31 AM UTC
Actor you haven't posted in days, and now you've returned posting nothing but paranoid and negative thoughts. What's goin' on, big guy?
2018-03-04 at 3:53 AM UTC
I had a heart op. While recovering I was in a room with this diabetic shithead who was too fat and kept moving too much and being too rough with his wound and the steel wires that hold your chest together after surgery started coming out. He had to go back in to get them re-done.
