Green tea plus girl scout cookies, or something like that. Contemplating the self sacrifice people make for whatever reasons. The greater good etc. Even just sacrificing their time. Its kind of crazy but you may as well i guess.
Im constantly surrounded by death. Tragic deaths. It reminds me not to take myself or this world too seriously. I feel kind of good about burning so many bridges, nobody will likely know or care when i die. I kinda feel bad for kr0z if hes really dead although i think he may secretly be doing black ops missions for the mossad or cia.
My friends that died were against crying for the most part. Theyd mock us for it and thats a good thing. Hollywood and the satanic establishment wants people to be emotionally unstable... Animals in nature die and simply rot with a few exceptions like crows which have funerals for their dead. I feel like we'll mostly be remembered for the things we create. Id like to die alone in a forest, rather than surrounded by sociopathic employees of globohomos healthcare system in a cold sterile environment that is a reflection of the corruption of the soul and the environment, as well as a slap in the face.
Being stuck in a big dirty city full of streets littered with used condoms, dirty needles and human feces, negative emotions and hopelessness everywhere, lack of morality...
I hate everything modern people stand for and i have done everything in my power to resist and not become a mindless drone slave like everyone else, even if it means an untimely death.
EDIT: ive never been suicidal nor will i ever be, and i find the concept to be pretty foreign. Its strangely more common in japan and a lot of nordic countries... Places that seem pretty fucking nice compared to what im used to.